things didn't end up this way,
and that those bad events didn't happen.
i really wish we could be us.

maybe i'm fixated on things being a certin way,
but i feel like i really diserved it,
i hate having to proove myself to you,
especially because the weight falls on my back and not theirs.
maybe i didn't do the right thing,
but i wasn't all wrong.

i hate ( Read more... )

 as of this moment i'm really happy ( Read more... )

i am destined to be alone ( Read more... )

i'm waking up from this short lived experience on "cloud 9 ( Read more... )

LIFE LESSON NUMBER ONE ::

ALWAYS WATCH PEOPLE MIX YOUR DRINKS!!

 these past few days have been almost perfect.
i got a jobbb at Blue Hawaii Tan in Bellmore,
i've only worked once so far and i'm going in this evening again.
everything is just going well lately,
i'm sure it wont stay this way too long but it's good while it lasts.
suprisingly i've even been waking up and going to sleep at a normal time.

however i find ( Read more... )

i was feeling really good all day ( Read more... )

i feel like i've been fighting with everyyyone lately ( Read more... )

 nothing is for certin anymore ( Read more... )

seriously amounts to nothing.

.. i love it.