oh  christmas time
you always leave me fucking broke.
i need a god damned job,
preferably an easy one.

i've realized too many girls feel bad for themselves.
life is always gunna be a mess,
stop bitching and moaning about it.
i'm glad i have the people i have in my life,
reguardless to the fact that many of them suck.
you just gotta know peoples limitations.

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someone get me this for christmas.. in pink<3

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pretending i'm okay when i'm a mess.

i've been living a conscious dream.
i am neither awake nor asleep anymore,
i am tangable but i feel nothing,
and i do what's right for others but rarely myself.
i don't even know whats right for me,
but i don't really care.
i'm living in the moment,
doing what i feel is right for today,
maybe not tomorrow or my future.

i sometimes wonder if i walked into a ( Read more... )

i don't have all the answers,
but for the first time i'm willing to accept that.
i don't need them nor do i want them right now.

all i know is when one door closes another opens,
and the door i'm walking into involves no one but myself.
i need to do a lot of stuff for myself,
and no one else.
i feel good,
even though i shouldn't because i know things have ( Read more... )

do i ever get a break?
ever since you've entered my life everythings gotten so complicated.
you never do what you're suposed to do,
or what's right for anyone other than yourself.

i don't even know why i'm fighting so hard to make things right.
ultimately are you worth it?
will you EVER give me anything in return?
you don't even care about my problems,
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commical when stupid little scene whores feel the need to hit on every d00d via myspace ( Read more... )

that i'm happy and i don't have much to complain about or anything ( Read more... )

i feel pathetic that i result to the intenet to complain about my life.
oh well, it could be worse.. i could be ugly.
hahahahah jk.

so many things are bothering me,
and for the most part i can't even figure out what they are.

have you ever held your breath under water for a long time?
yeah. that's my life in a nutshell.
i feel like i keep waiting until i ( Read more... )

yeahh life's good.
aparently you CAN have your cake and eat it too,
i have been misinformed my whole life.
i have mad college interviews and stuff comming up,
which is slightly stressful.

ultimately,
i'm pretty happy.
there really would be no point in dwelling in what could've been,
or should've been because it didn't happen.
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