so i finally decided to tell my mom that im going to minnesota and she freaked as if i had just told her i've been on acid for the past year. or that i committed murder. she said i wasnt thinking straight and that i'm not making sense and she was crying hysterically and was upset and said that i was giving her a headache. all of this because im ( Read more... )

its been a while. but here i am once again in the early hours of the morning. i have work in less than 3 hours but it doesnt matter ( Read more... )

lil update for ya, those who are concerned ( Read more... )

envy is never a good thing, and lately, thats all ive been feeling. i just hate doing it, looking, staring, questioning myself as if i had any control. and i immediately feel selfish because i have so much already, and you cant have it all. but i would trade it all. or at least i think i would. i mean, who knows whats in store. but i guess ( Read more... )

lots of high hopes for the summer. but first, a quick recap ( Read more... )

so if anyone read yesterday and thought i was feeling stressed, its cuz i was. and today it got worse. more financial troubles, and then the worst email ive ever read ( Read more... )

the only true friends in life that never let you down are your pillow and you're teddy bear. how could they? you're pillow lets you relax, holds you up when you feel the weight of the world pushing you down, or it lets you sink in and you let it engulf you, allowing all your pressure to be absorbed through it. and its always there to catch your ( Read more... )

can't wait to screw this up ( Read more... )

"for most who live and breathe,
hell is never knowing who they are now.
tell me who you are now.
finally safe from the outside trapped in what you know.
are you safe from yourself? can you escape all by yourself?"

i havent said anything in here in a while. i guess you could say a lot has happened. or not. so im joining a fraternity. I was ( Read more... )

i've realized that my life falls into one of two options: absolutely perfect or absolute shit. this morning was the former, tonight was the latter. i dont understand why my life has to be so up and down, and why i have to be so stupid. im sorry. i always fuck things up. i'm never speaking up again.