so break was interesting to say the least. not so bad christmas. good birthday. i dunno, it just seemed like my whole life was on autopilot for four weeks. i dont know whats wrong with me, but im the same way here. its weird the way things are going. and im not sure whats going on really. i know what i need to do, i just cant get myself to do it. ( Read more... )

"dream of demons while you sleep that make you stutter when you speak ( Read more... )

i have a fear. its a terrible fear. i go to sleep every night and its there, waiting. i get chills just thinking about it. i worry that tonight might be the night. that i'm only one second away from living the nightmare that greets me when i rest ( Read more... )

i was home. for two weeks. and you waited ( Read more... )

i dont know what you expect from me. i dont want things to change. but i understand what you're saying. im not sure what's gonna happen. but im more confused than ever and i feel sick to my stomach. im completely miserable.

from what once was bold and refreshing ( Read more... )

something's very wrong here ( Read more... )

hello emojournal.

this one's for you, champ. you know who you are.

that's right, i said it. i'm an emo kid.

peacce.

stabby RIP stab stab.

so i cant confirm it for sure yet, but i think today was the day. the day i figured out what i want to do with my life. it's been in my mind for weeks, but today i took action to learn more. and i'm glad i did ( Read more... )

i dont know why you think avoiding the subject altogether will make it better. that's just foolishness mixed with a little bit of wishful thinking. not a good combination. but then again, i guess you were just going all-in on the single hope that i might change my mind. well that was worse. thank you. you're complacency just makes me realize how ( Read more... )