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It smells like sauteed babies in here.
I've never felt so alone, confused, or disoriented in my life.
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i can't take my eyes off of you.
Today;
I learned what it means to actually care about someone enough to change all your plans just so you can be around that person and make their afternoon the slightest bit better.
Even if all you do is sit in their room with them and eat brownies and watch Fight Club, Wrist Cutters, and 30 Days of Night. Or go to their soccer games at 8:00 at ( Read more... ) -
Help I'm Alive.
My heart keeps beating like a hammer.
I've never felt so alone in my life.
Have you ever wanted to disappear? -
Bang, Bang. Guns Go Bang.
i thought you changed;
with all my heart i believed the lies you were shoving down my throat. i trusted the you, and let myself get caught up in the web you were weaving yourself.
but trends aren't set by the lies between your teeth.
Robbie.
the name slides off my tongue with such practiced ease, perfected calmness. because that name makes my stomach ( Read more... ) -
never meant to see so clear, with the smoke in your eyes.
this isn't as difficult as i thought it would be. i've got my life in a suitcase.
i'll survive.
just as long
as i have you
holding my hand.
<3
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22 year age difference? who gives a shit? i don't.
and baby can't you see? my eyes are lieing to you. so stop telling me you can see it all in them, because there as unreliable as my heart is. -
i almost feel sorry for what i'm going to do.
i don't think i'm going to be posting on here for a while. a very long while. i need to get my life together. i'm scared and clueless. and i need time. i need to take chances, and i need to get things glued and pieced back together.
so i'll see all of you when my brain is functioning correctly again, and i've got all this stuff straightened out.
bye ( Read more... ) -
i am Alice's perpetual loneliness.
It's really funny and ironic, all of this. How no matter how many people I stand up for, defend, protect, the favor is never returned. I never get the same sort of shelter I provide for everyone else.
Nooooooo, Alice has to claw her way through life.
Everyone else gets a fucking free ticket. Doesn't have to deal with everyones bullshit. They ( Read more... ) -
So,
I've been thinking lately. And, I'm going to make it a point to let go. I know I say a lot that I've "moved on" and "gotten over it" and all those things ( Read more... ) -
Which Came First?
The Music Or The Misery?
Everything is so screwed up. So completely pointless. I just wish I could go to college, get a job, move away and start living.
That dream seems to be a far shot, impossible. Never. Going. To. Fucking. Happen.