i am 15 for a moment, caught between 10 and 20

[breaking_points]

life------ what can i say, man i dont know whats going on anymore, i go from happy to crying, laughing to worrying, lonely to content, content to lonely, friends to frinedless, friendless to friends

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[ullnevergetme]

You're thinking way too much about the future.
We all just need to realize what we're losing and how much things mean to us right now.And how one person that we may meet one day is not worth losing one person that we've known alot longer;even if we may be alot angrier at the person we are closer too. We know the faults in eachother and thats why we get mad at eachother alot. We'll learn though.
We all have things to work out and work on.

Yeah, you really need to 2 figure out more about yourself before u even get involved with someone else.People are always lonely when they realize they dont have someone, they get over it though. I went through it and now i'm over it.Just give it some time.
You'll keep growing up and learn more about yourself as time passes.

In the meantime...i'm right here for ya i guess.

[breaking_points]

lindsey, i have been thinking about this all day.. to be honest i dont knwo why we were fighting, and if i dont even know what its about then its not worth it.. i am sry i yelled at you and everything else and hopefully we can put it behind us now...

yea i know i am just going through a period that i will soon pass as i get use dto the lonelyness and probably eventually i wont even know that i am lonely.. i will make it, its just hard sometime sbut we all go though it!!

i am learning more about my self with each day... and i need that
here for you 2

[ullnevergetme]

Shawn.
i'm pretty sure i know ya better than anyone on here basically (besides tiff) haha i dont know you THAT well.. lol.
But things will get better.
We're all just not thinking about the important things and what mistakes we are making.
We're all concerned with everyone else's.
I think we all need 2 hang out one night again just for old times sake...(cough*andnotgetditched*cough)..lol..we all just need that.
Zapata's and then to watch a movie.(dont think any bad thoughts) lol.

Everything will be alright though.
Hey. one of us has to be positive....
love ya.

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yea i really understand all of that, especially the part about us all way into each other business which is just causing more problems then we need... but yea things will get better, they always do in some way or the other we will all end up happy!!

yea another group night would be awesome!< but hey no more zapatas or mexican actually we need a new resturuant lol! luv ya have a good night

[tennisstar]

i think that was probably the best article eric's ever written. it was soooo sweet!

and also, i know that i don't know what's going on in your life, but just don't spend all your time worrying about the past or the future because you'll miss what's happening right here and now.

Just a thought, Mel

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yea, perosnally i have to agree with you on the article... it was the sweetest thing he has ever said about me... it made my week

thanks for the advice i will definatly take it bc your righ if i dont cherish the present then in the future i am going to regret worrying or thinking about stuff that i cant do anything abouy.. thanks

[tennisstar]

i used to dwell on the past a lot but i think i'm finally starting to realize that what happened happened and i can't change it so why dwell on it or regret it. i think everything happens for a reason. so just take your life experiences, good or bad, and make the most of them.

::pause:: ((where did that come from?? haha i didn't know i was that smart!!))

[breaking_points]

::think:: that was actually really good.... sounds like it came from IAN!!! which is awesome

yea really true, you have to live one day at a time and live that day to teh fullest before you cant start living tomorrow

[starlit_dream]

Shawn,
Hey q-t pi! what up? yeh yeh you need to stop worrying so much of the future, everything will fall in place...just be patient!

i thought the article eric wrote was really sweet, and hopefull (not being mean) open your eyes, of maybe what you might need to focus on, because it happened to me, when he moves off to college your going to miss him like anything, yeh i wish i would have talked to my brothers like i do now....cherish every moment.....

alot of things in high school are very over-dramatic, i don't know whats going on cause you still ignore me at the locker, and we dont talk much and that kinda sucks (i hope when you're 30 you'll remember how we shared lockers in high school!) lol, but my one advice to you, stop searching....it'll come.....believe me it will....

i love ya boi! im here for ya always!

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yea your not the first person who has told me about once they leave you will miss them, i think me and him will get real close during the time we have left with eachother, but its sad it takes 15 years before we try to start and now we have 15 years of catching up to do!

yea yes, highschool dramatizes everything far beyond what it really is... we try to make everything into a big issue but the truth is we will just forget all about it in less then a week. HAHA yes i will always remember my favorite locker buddy, we gotta share again next year!

i will take the advice and wait patiently
luv ya 2

[starlit_dream]

well get on it!! it must be alot....

oh yes we will.....whoever gets the better locker.....lol mwahahaha....

well, im glad you'll tkae my advice.....
love ya!

[breaking_points]

haha i am on it< its a moving

i will get the better locker... junior over sophmoore!!< go me lol jk

CARPE DIEM!!!

[thomasino]

that article made me laugh!!!

why get caught up in the future (whether it's tomorrow or "in 30 odd years") you need to focus on today (before it becomes a permanent yesterday!!!

enough of this philosophical shit!
we need to go fishing again (to clear our minds)

Re: CARPE DIEM!!!

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haha dude... that was freaking awesome qoute "why get caught up in the future (whether it's tomorrow or "in 30 odd years") you need to focus on today (before it becomes a permanent yesterday!!!"

yea we do... come over sometime and i will try not to throw the rod in the lake this time and you cut your hands again lol

"i'll run and get scissors"

[thomasino]

yea... i made that quote up... whenever i get a car... then we can reminisce and fish again!

Re: "i'll run and get scissors"

[breaking_points]

haha so true car will make it much easier and you get your car before me so the fish need to beware on may something lol

hey babe

[anonymous]

Hey...OMG ur soo great ..i love ya shawn ur a great friend and after readin this journal of urs..its like wow ..and ive realized how cool u are ..i so agree with you .time to start hangin out and gettin to kno each other better and umm theres an entry in here that is talkin about sumthin and u want sumone to purty much just enjoy life with well ..ya never know shawn they could be right there in front of you and u not know it yet...give it a chance it'll come ..well umm and about the cell thing my cell number is 283-5724 call me sumthin ..store it in ur phonebook..and umm yeah ur a great guy ..hope to get to kno u better and better..ya never know what could happen within the nex sec.
1...i skipped lines...
2...im thinkin about....
umm etc.
anyways..my line is :"What Ever Happens...Happens..." and always member "Its better to be Pissed off...(the on)"

Re: hey babe

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wow thanks for all that, thats really sweet of you! yea it will be cool getting to know you better 2 and yea i added you in my phonebook, mine is 370-7346! well i will definatly take your advice as well, what happens happens, i cant change it and for that i shouldnt worry about it bc there isnt anything i can do to change it!
thanks again on all the compliments, you awesome!, luv ya 2