after ups and downs and a long period of mediocrity i am packing up and leaving tivoli. i feel completely mixed up about it, part of me wants seattle and home and family and friends and all that my favorite city offers, and part of me just wants to stay here with mark and continue living this unreal unemployed upstate existence. i know that no ( Read more... )

life has become a series of leisurely sun-stroke days, one indistinguishable from the next. summer bbq's, pool parties, drive-in movies and sneaking into stephen shore's pool. college is over, and that fact is entirely too much for my brain to process. the end of being a student, after a lifetime of being a student, is impossible and fills me with ( Read more... )

photo show was a hit. after a wild winding week of terrible sickness/cramps/no sleep and neverending printing (to the point that my home actually became woods), i finished. mark hanni and i hung from 10 am till 8.30 pm, and the night continued with mojitos concocted in my darkroom, vodka, champagne, belligerence, and an incredible series of ( Read more... )

flew to seattle, cut off my hair, came back here and it became spring. i am in love, and everything other than that feels painfully uncertain. larry fink saved me from this mindstate momentarily the other night with overall praise and an invitation to his farm house in rural pennsylvania. now it is nonstop work and walks in hudson hand-in-hand, sun ( Read more... )

right now i am baking banana bread dying easter eggs and avoiding any activity that relates to the future. recently that has felt like too much, getting into the head-state where all i can think about is the uncertain haphazard jobless broke summer that approaches, and how that means leaving so much. life has been filled with b.p.i, the boyfriend, ( Read more... )

so into it.

boys, superbowl, super tuesday. midway tomorrow, near-blinding neverending preperation with the end result of 15 20x30 prints. a weekend of franzia, dan deacon (serving as personal dj), crushin/thinking bard can be above par this semester, my last ( Read more... )

as always, my relationship with seattle is enduring moments of love and moments of hatred. love the espresso, the comfort of home, the friends, ferrie boats, nights out (& more often than not, nights in, sitting by the fireplace reading dave eggars). hate the rain, traffic, weird state of mind when seeing people from high school, the nervous place ( Read more... )

insomnia is getting the best of me. here is a sampling of the work that has been taking over my time for the past while.


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good/great weekend of warm food snowy weather and double hangovers in the city. was kissed by a boy from vermont who confessed his love for me after i kicked over his 40 (the stuff of true romance). my body aches from lack of sleep / cramps / being on an air mattress for the few hours of sleep that i did have. thank god for zabar's lox, dean & ( Read more... )