so im sitting in my living room and the house is empty with the exception of me and the two cats who are nowhere insight. i havent updated this thing in quite some time im not much for writing things down anymore and for that matter posting them on the internet but im bored. cant decide if i want to go out or just take a sleeping pill and go to ( Read more... )

first they take away aim, then msn and now MYSPACE!!!! i have no reason to come to work now. its just a matter of time until they find this site and BAM!! it will be gone to. oh man i am so depressed now.

so once again it is tax return time and this year i have been blessed with a pretty good sum of el casho. thats what i get for planning ahead and giving uncle sam a litte extra cheese every paycheck. so with this money i am going to get some things i need/desire and also be responsible ( Read more... )

vacation time!! i havent had a vacation in soo damn long. finally i get one! im off to colorado in 16 days and it couldnt have come at a better time. i get to see some friends i havent seen in over a year, go to some amazing shows and hang out with my best friend. the next two weeks better go by fast thats all ive got to say. oh and hopefully ill ( Read more... )

W-2 where are you?

i had to go christmas shopping today and it fucking sucked. i spent way to much money on people i see olny once a year.

i have moments of anger, frustration, loss and yet feeling relieved. cant stop thinking about it. wonder what your what your doing and if you miss me. some times i am glad your gone other times i want to come home and see your face. i randomly saw them at a stop light and almost lost my biscuits and gravy. i am just aching for the day when they ( Read more... )

so wednesday pretty much made up for the last three months of emotional bullshit and drama. i had the best therapy session ever, i went and saw fiona apple at the moore and totally got lost in her music and the mood. it was sooo good. she played everything i needed to hear and ended with the perfect song for the show and my current situation. M ( Read more... )

so bored right now......so dark outside makes me just want to sleep life away. where is everybody and what are they doing?

totally fucking bored and numb. its friday and all i have planned is the dishes. what happened to my life , where is it going? five months ago i was happy, i would be at trax right now preforming. m would be serving drinks, then dancing, go home snuggle and wake up and make breakfast. what the fuck, why cant i just move on and feel totally good ( Read more... )