so today,
was the worst day I've had all year
(all year meaning January, not school year)

And I really feel like crying,
and I need to cry
And I need a friend to talk to,
but when I picked up my phone,
I realized, I had noone to call.

I don't want your pity.
I just want a fucking person to call when it feels like the end.
Which is alot lately.
oh, and I feel ( Read more... )

ok, so I've decided that I'm still going to use this journal.

Things have been really complicated and frustrating lately.
I havn't been able to figure anything out.
Everything I have done lately seems like a blur
I can hardly remember what goes on when I go places.
And it seems to be only getting worse.
I feel like I'm slowly becoming unhappy with ( Read more... )

hahahahahaha.
im so over [everything]

Sammi and I have everything planned out.
so back off, and deal with it. hah.

and I had so much fun at Kristine's house last night, seriously.

ok. so far,
fuck this weekend,
and fuck you.

Sammi, Emily, and Kristine are probably the only people that know about this
And its going to stay that way.
(and im fucking estatic for our sleepover tomorrow night.)

kthx.

I think I'm done being confused :]

& I'm watching a walk to remember. alone
hah. can it get any sadder than that.

EDIT::
oh yeah & I'm done with your shit.
kthx.

This week.
GAH.
that's all I have to say.

I quit [smoking]
& I'm serious this time

[or at least I really want to be]

&i want a boy.

MY CAR IS FIXED!
no more randomly breaking down at friends houses,
or gas stations
or starbucks
or the mall.

And I'm now a part of
EMSARKRIS.
and that makes us cooler than you.
& Emily is going out of town this weekend
But Kristine and I are writing a song about her
And the weekend after this coming one should be amazing,
because i love my girls & junk.

EDIT:
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im not gonna lie...
this weekend has been one of the best. ever.
besides my car not starting
4 TIMES.
and being in the mall parking lot right now.

I wish that the one thing I really want to say to [you]
is the one thing I know I can't...

and please,
no comments asking who or what.
kthx.

EDIT:: this isnt necessarily directed to one person,
mainly all my friends.
But, i did have one person in mind while writting it.