I don't know what I want

[brilliant_laced]

I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm so tired of worrying about what I eat, how I look and so on. It's been a year since this started, and sometimes I would forget and have fun with my friends and go out to eat. These past few months have been different. I can't eat out. I just can't. I pick at my food, I start to feel sick, not on purpose just at

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[rachitique]

Darling, I feel like you everyday! I am just starting recovery cause I've had enough. Just allowing myself to eat whatever made me lose interest in binging. i just eat super healthy/vegan and organic and I think I actually lost a bit!

I think when you put too much pressure on yourself it actually keeps you from losing. Stress, water retention and gaining muscle could be the reason why you're not losing also. I decided to go by the mirror instead of the stupid scale(just get rid of it trust me). I'm still at 108 but I look and feel like 105.

If being skinny is your goal, i hope you reach it. Replace high cal foods by similar things you'll enjoy that are lower intake. Like bread---> rice cakes, meat--->lentils or rice, etc...But i can assure you that i wasn't satisfied at 95(I'm 5'5), and I would probably try to keep losing if I reached 90. My suggestion is focuse on being in shape and healthy. Good luck!!

J. xx

[brilliant_laced]

Thanks =)

[anonymous]

Enjoy life and don't worry about it. Have you looked around you? you are probaly pretteir than all the girls around you no matter what you think. I know how you feel but let it go you'll enjoy life more if your not always thinking what am I going to eat next? It sucks only eating 500 cal a day and its not worth it.Alot of schools have support groups they can be really helpfull

you're very right

[spalamana]

i agree. i can't read the posts on the site about how people binged. i don't relate. i don't binge. i'm so into ana at this point. sometimes i feel the way you do and the serious consequences of this overcome me and i have a breakdown. othertimes i feel so light and so happy when i look in the mirror. either way it's an obsession and if people knew the hell of it they wouldn't be so jealous.

Re: you're very right

[brilliant_laced]

yeah. I hope for the best for you guys. Thanks.