I'm back. Fuck 'getting better' you can never get better. I hate how I look in the mirror. HATE IT. So I'm back, because I'm struggling to stay 'healthy' and I hate it if I succeed...at least if I struggle with this; succeeding gives me satisfaction. Well 103 today...Hoping to be 98 by June 9th. Help on excersising w/ out muscle gain+ab ( Read more... )

Recently I've been struggling to find happiness in each day. I finally confided in one of my best friends and she said she knew something wasn't right, she could see it physically and she could see it in my eyes. She told me that she wont be able to sleep peacefully at night unless I get help. The second step was telling my mom. I couldn't break ( Read more... )

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I don't know any of you personally, I kinda like that I can vent and maybe get feedback without having to face you everday. But I hate my life. I mean I have it so damn good and that's why I feel so fucking guilty that I hate everyday of it. I feel ugly and fat and upset and everything right now. I woke up went to school came home, had a 1/2 mini ( Read more... )

I made brownies. 100 each. Except I can't do math when cutting things so I cut them smaller then the serving size, which means I saved 100 calories, but I really have only aten 50, hmm dessert?

It was so cold today my lips turned blue and i almost passed out, my class thought I was ganna like havea seizer. Ya sweet.

So if you cringe at drinking black coffee but do it anyway for the caffiene, and would so much rather add cream and suger to it then here is your low calorie best friend. 1 cup coffee, 2tbsp unsweetend hershey's cocco, 1tbsp splenda, 1/4 tsp vaniall or almond extract. 40 calories.

I was practically force fed chocolate cake from Chili's. About 1/2 a cake is 635. So that was more then I ate all day. I even got the healthy chicken sandwhich was only 420 and i didn't even eat all of it i just loaded up on the steemed brocoli and was pretty excited that I was able to go out, not look stupid because I couldn't eat a lot and have ( Read more... )

Does anyone that posts on here a model?

I'm so tired of feeling this way. I'm so tired of worrying about what I eat, how I look and so on. It's been a year since this started, and sometimes I would forget and have fun with my friends and go out to eat. These past few months have been different. I can't eat out. I just can't. I pick at my food, I start to feel sick, not on purpose just at ( Read more... )

I have work tomorrow. I don't want to go. I work at a swim suit shop. It's motivation I guess. I guess.