I am good. I am in my bubble- thoughts going through fluidly.... i am peaceful with letting it all go now ( Read more... )

Twisted and wonderful. dark and glorius. you know more about me than any other person on this earth. i tread softer now. looking behind me. my trust issues screaming, but my heart oblivious to it all ( Read more... )

Perhaps if i can focus i can get what i want done
Maybe if i am good, karma will for once do me a favor

NO FOOD! i haven't eaten. i don't plan on it. 'cause i love that dizzy feeling and i need it for today. i need to be weak to deal with the emotions..does that make sense ( Read more... )

Would Not Come ( Read more... )

ME! i am using ani against emily and i am so proud of myself. because i have evidence. i have back up for my random and scattered thoughts. when it comes to her i feel so ridiculous with my thoughts. i don't really have much experience to warrant my feelings. i just have intuition. and people don't always respect that ( Read more... )

The room is cleaner. My schoolbooks are getting some much deserved attention from my roaming and rather distracted eyes. beyond these images of Carvaggigo i am picturing her. i am content. i can face it all. because i am one of those sad, pathetic creatures who has to have a set schedule in which i can work in or else i get distracted and lose ( Read more... )

we all have them. needs, fears, insecurities...a clinging to the familiar ( Read more... )

This weekend was trying. it was loving, revealing, and so tiring. but i am content with it happening. the one thing i wish would change is the dynamics of the room. i feel horrid for this triangle. for all of this triangles. i do not understand this issues. i honestly love you as my dearest roomate ever. but i wish that these things could ( Read more... )

She lies naked in my bed still. peaceful, not seemingly filled with that energy that sparked our hours of talk and somehow, i am dead. i gave it all that i could give. you tried to fill me with your words. but i am empty. you didn't even try. you cannot touch one when your heart belongs to another. i at least learned that much from eowyn. ( Read more... )