i suppose this will be a quiet day. tif is working and then she will come home quiet and exhausted. my mum is working so i cannot fulfill my daughter duties by entertaining her while at least keeping myself busy ( Read more... )

yes...i have been non existant. well metaphorically. very much active in this dreary real world. alas, i may call it dreary but in all actuality i am quite enjoying it. sometimes this adult thing that we play at for quite some time seems like a very lonely game. although i have a loving, serious girlfriend... i just miss...being alone. ( Read more... )

well as you should know by now: prepare yourself for more mindless dribble by rachel ( Read more... )

i am finally alone. solitude..something i have been seeking for some time now. what can i say? i missed myself, the randomness of just listening to the opera music in the background ( Read more... )

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To my bunny ( Read more... )

~may the rage subside ( Read more... )

keep the emotions in your voice- don't close your eyes when you kiss me- don't let your hand lie there limp- show me you heart- give me the choice to break or protect- don't yield to my manipulation- laugh at my pathetic whimpers- wipe away my tears- tell me you love me in a small voice- let your own salt tears fall unhindered ( Read more... )

i hate in days like today people that can't even try to be pleasant. i hate people who don't communicate. i hate people who don't even try to be sensible. i am tired of being the perky one. i am tired of being the one that all moods can be flaunted on, but cannot flaunt my own. because if i do, there is a snippy response to each statement. ( Read more... )

ooh to be in a smoky, hot, tense, erotic jazz lounge. to be there in the 1920s...to go back and witness these same circles of life. i realize i miss so much from back home. i am ready ( Read more... )