Right about now I wish life wasn't so complicated and hard. It seems every time I have something bad going on I get more heaved on top of the already painfully heavy pile. I know I'm a strong person but wow really... I mean really God you can't maybe have mercy and let me recover some. I know there is a lot I don't understand I get that there is ( Read more... )

Bleh went back to work sadly today. I love my job just can't deal with some of the upstart people there anymore. They act like they are above all and anyone who knows me knows I can't stand ppl who treat people like they are beneath them. God made us all!!
Just because everyone of us makes our own life choices and they don't always lead us on the ( Read more... )

I don't write as much as I use to. Guess its easier for me to lock it all up. I have this journal as well as a written one but still I can't explain it. If I could go off the.grid I would and I mean completely off the grid. Away from the people I know and I have anger at. The whole caring side of me doesn't let me walk away when I just really want ( Read more... )

At times I truly don't get why lifes as it is. I know many say its what you make it or its what god has chosen to give you, but really what is it ? I have many blessings in my life as well as many trials which is pretty typical. But right now I am someone I don't get. I no longer care about others like I use to. If they can't take me for who I am ( Read more... )

So as always its been a while. Things have happened and changed like the ever so revolving door called my life. Ppl show their true colors .. most of the time they are fake ugly colors hidden behind bright vibrant mock colors. Ppl just make me truly sick most of the time. They hide behind holy words and gods great name yet are truly black hearted ( Read more... )

I realize now that cooking and baking makes me happy. Its like a therapeutic hobby. Yes at times its stressful but that's because when I do it last min and I don't have.something I need I freak. But today I've been baking bread and making stuff for the freezer and I'm thinking Sundays will be my cooking day.

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Sometimes its best if ppl forget about u. It makes the confusion and sadness go away.  I want some ppl to forget about me and mine. I pray that god just closes the door and makes it disappear because nothing can fix what the past is. I've learned and grown stronger from it but at the same time it saddens me greatly. Sometimes I guess u just have to ( Read more... )

My friend u know who u are.. at times I wish I could talk to u like nothing ever happened. Ur one if the few ppl I don't fear judging or looking down on me.  I wish the past was different but god has his reasons.  Sometimes I just wish history was not what it is. Out of respect and a good heart I obey the rules and even if I hate it I still stand ( Read more... )

Been sick and in pain the last 2 days.. sucks lol but what hits me ohh no Chris wants to bake Haha.. so look out I got to get it all done before bed time!!! Thank god for pain meds..

The realization that someone isn't what u thought they where. That they see more then anyone gives them credit for and the fear that they see with gods gifts the truth behind actions when he himself wants the lies and cosmetic make up stripped away. I personally think its funny because at face value I'm not the.type. so when I hear omg how am I ( Read more... )