so, i found what i believe to be the perfect campsite for our upcoming excursion.  it'll end up costing about twelve a night, which is a little high i guess, until you realize that there is a WATER TRAMPOLINE.  i believe that a petty eight dollars from each of us is well worth it.  see for yourself:

http://horseshoebendmarina.com/index.htm

if either ( Read more... )

well, a lot of people in st louis have mono right now.  good thing i'm not kissing anyone.

i am bored out of my fucking mind.

it sucks when you either hate your friends or they hate you.

it really does suck.

i want some popcorn.

i want some friends and i want to watch rent.  tonight.

i hate it here sometimes. aka, right now.

going to see click in an hour or so. i'm excited to see the movie, a bit less excited about who i'm seeing it with.  hmm.  i need to get some cash, because all i have is a credit card. might go buy something at the grocery and get cash back ( Read more... )

it hurts like hell to hurt someone who you care about so deeply. and it hurts to find out how much they actually care about you. it hurts not to be able to say the one thing that could make it all better.  i'm so fucked up. and i know that i am. jason is perfect. he's perfect for me.  but i dont want to be with him. hell, i want to be with him, but ( Read more... )

"bah bah, bah bah. this is the sound of settling."

everything is weird, and i dont enjoy it.  i felt good tonight; i felt like i was with my best friend playing jurassic park and dance dance revolution. but did he feel like he was with his girlfriend having a great time?  i just dont understand how two people who are uncommonly alike, could have ( Read more... )

so. i feel obligated to update. my mom told me today that we are going to alabama on the 14th. i'll be there for about two weeks, which will probably suck. who knows ( Read more... )

i hate lying to jason, because, for the last six months, he is the one person that i've never lied to. and lying is exactly what i'm doing. i'm leading him on. and i know it. i only wish he did. he knew that i left his house early because i wanted to, not because my mom wanted me home. he knew it, and he called me on it. but i lied again. it ( Read more... )

the internet at my house has been fucked up lately, so apparently i have missed a lot. no worries, i am back now.

it has been four days since my last post; some kind of record, i'm sure. i dont know what to say, or how to put what i want to say ( Read more... )