the funny thing about depression
when i am down
i get really down
the all time limbo champ
that falls flat on her face
restlessly
my mind ram-sacking the thoughtlessness
of the beautiful things
they always turn ugly
promise me,
promise me you can make everything saty beautiful
forever.

he leaves tonight.

i dont know how to be, inside i am sobbing and so so sad.
i am not quite as numb as i should like to be.

i am broken not having him here, by my side, in my bed, in my car and in my shower.
i miss you so fucking much baby.
i curl up every night with that pillow and pretend it is you.
i wish to god it w as you, i want to skip the years
i want to pass the bullshit
and just move far far away with you, and just be humble happy people.

my heart has been shut off for a long time ( Read more... )

well all know those leaches ( Read more... )

so now i may be looking at surgery on my back ( Read more... )

ok so i really really do like him.
he gives fantastic hugs, and i love laying in bed with him.
we have great laughs.
and i fell for his smile. dimples. giggle.
ok so what if i really really do like him because he is a genuinlly sweet nice guy.

he cant be that bad for me..... (?)

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i am oh so so sick of these stupid things that hold me up ( Read more... )

i am starting bar tending school on monday ( Read more... )