late to the christmas assembly yesterday because i was digesting the email i got from Reed. That was the most magial part of the week. a close second though was the moment steve cutts walked onstage and got a standing ovation for surprising everyone and announced to anyone who might be confused that nor rain nor sleet nor snow nor amtrak was going ( Read more... )

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so last night (after the SATs and the terrible critics) i felt for a few hours that my life could be a movie like "me and you and everyone we know" and it could end then and everything would be somehow resolved because fundamentally there is love everywhere despite the fact that its often in disguise what with all the dogshit that gets thrown on it ( Read more... )

so, my birthday went much as anticipated. spent most of the day at school getting ready for and executing a first dress that was "as bad as a first dress can possibly get". awesome ( Read more... )

soo..here i sit backstage as they work out the cues (all 400 o'dem) in the box. writing my english paper (and procrastinating with ljs) on max's laptop. max who is onstage right now being drunk and probably butchering stoppard ( Read more... )

all 3 journals due tomorrow...also ive got miles of orlando ahead of me being that i havent even made it to the sex change yet and i refuse to take advantage of what a sweet nice person rika because taking advantage of nice people is what evil people do. but if theres one thing we learn from paradise lost its that evil is massively sexy and good is ( Read more... )

argh. you know when you spend like months preparing and preparing yourself for something that you KNOW is going to happen. or you tell yourself over and over that something you desperately want to happen definetly will NOT happen...and you just tell yourself that over and over and you feel completely in control and not only do you know that it will ( Read more... )

so college is now basically the most and least awesome thing in my life.


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it is time for me to demonstrate the following qualities:
1) will power
2) maturity
3) determination
4) honesty
5) confidence
6) etcetera.
i recognize that i am wandering into a situation that i would have dealt with a certain way years, or months, ago and my plan is to not deal with it that way anymore.

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