OK, so you know how in hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy the meaning of life is 42? where does that come from? is it a biblical reference? it's established in matthew that a total of 42 generations elapses between abraham and the birth of jesus. coincidence? eh?

i'll be home in a month. hahahahahaha. need more sleep.

FUCK.

THIS.

saying "down the road not accross the street" in a lighthearted, casual tone in reference to botched suicide attempts does not make you:
-clever
-original
-"dark"
-profound
-shocking
-interesting
-badass

it just makes you tedious. that is all.

a week from today i will have embarked (liquidless) on to the portland chapter of the extremely drawn out WORLD TOUR that if all goes according to plan (and significant changes take place, all part of the plan) shall be my life. there are still a number of things i need to purchase and still a number of people i need to say goodbye to but in case i ( Read more... )

a baby chicken died in my hands yesterday, it was incredibly sad. i've never seen an animal look so human, it just started shutting it's eyes like a person falling asleep and i didn't know what to do so i was trying to keep it awake and it just gave up. it was so sadly resigned to the fact that it had just been mutilated in the mouth of this huge ( Read more... )

orpheus was punished for his concern. his concern was punishment for his love, which was punishment for his humanity. lot's wife was punished for her empathy, or perhaps her morbid curiosity, or perhaps simply her fear of what was to become of her, and her desire for one final familiar image. both were punished for doing what they were told not to ( Read more... )

is there anyone out there who knows who i am? i feel as though i have dissapeared. i am in the middle of nowhere and most of the people here are my age but none of them will look at me and if they do it is with contempt. i will come home in two months for a week during which i will be too busy to see anyone but i don't think i'll know how to see ( Read more... )

This island is located in uncharted, unclaimed waters and it is where we live ( Read more... )

2 years to the day 2 years to the fucking day
what are the fucking odds and how stupid could i fucking get?
what formative years? clearly i'm still as vague and liquid as ever.

schmaltz made me want to kill myself more so then usual this time. every week gets more awkward and uncomfortable and i've just totally fucked up the entire coming of age process. i've had an entire childhood to work on myself and now i have to go to school and present the first installment of the finished product and i'm not finished yet. being in ( Read more... )