Today stinks, probably because that pain is coming back again and it hurts more than anything. Last night I couldn't walk because of it. I played calculator games while they played Wii, because I'm old school && don't do videojuegos. He told me he's afraid I don't like him as much as he likes me and the whole thing was so familiar because I ( Read more... )

I did it, finally. I called Ember && Tya and told them everything, I feel so much better now and hope they understand and accept my apologies because they mean the world to me. I still haven't told Cody yet and don't really know if I will, I'm scared. We had a good day today, just laying down listening to music and staring at each other. In a weird ( Read more... )

I lovee our school because Navy bands come to play for us and full on mosh pits break out, which leads to booing and cussing when Barry tries to tell everyone to leave. I fought with a stupid janitor and Barry just to take pictures for the stupid yearbook. We love the Navy. It makes me giggle when they talk about our friends being in gangs and ( Read more... )

"Thanks for being amazing", that's what he said when I pushed him away. I haven't been here before. I've never had someone just try so hard to make me feel better or make me feel loved. He's not cold, it's not a secret, he tells me I'm beautiful and that this is the happiest he's ever been. I'm so afraid of him, but I don't want him to get the ( Read more... )

Yeah things didn't get better, he just decided we wouldn't talk about it and that was that. He isn't happy with what I said, why be with someone if you aren't even happy? And I couldn't even get out what I wanted to say, it all just ran together like it always does and I kept crying, which I don't even think was because of what I was saying. I feel ( Read more... )

I told him I didn't want this to get serious and that I was scared and I haven't felt this completely horrible in a long time. I'm always the bad guy, even when I try hard as hell not to be.

I screamed today, in front of him, just screamed my lungs out to my father. Bubba was going to bring his girlfriend with him when he moved back in, and it pisses me off more than anything that my parents would just let that happen. We cannot fucking afford us living here, we don't need two more people. Cody && I aren't on good terms, he doesn't ( Read more... )

I finally got my tuna fix, amazingness. Woke up extra early, made horrible eggs, went to the mall, starbuckks, picked up Cody, did that whole bad kids thing, atee, tv, took Cody home, jammed oldies, hadd a cute anxious talk, and now nothing. Tila Tequila is cute && so is her music. 4"11 bitches rock, no joke. Tomorrow will be ickky homework day but ( Read more... )

This song makes me giggle && you don't know why. I'm super bored and that stinks cause it's Friday, whata poo Friday. Everybody is outta town or with their g-parents, sad story. Today is one month, funky. I don't think we're on good terms right now. Texas makes me shudder. I want the food in the box like whoa.

I haven't seen anybody outta school besides Cody recently, no complaints. Lots of sitting around and napping. He's like me, but in guy form, which is great because he has no problems with what I want. Gee I'm a handful. Turkey is so disgusting, I mean eww. I'm a Mountain Dew junkie. I dig calls in the middle of the night, and saying random things ( Read more... )