i'm not letting people fuck up my life it's all bullshit so i don't care... MORIAH & STEPHANIE thank you so much for helping me quit i am so thankful that you're with me... moriah i hope you'll come to trust me a little better, cause whatever's bothering you really needs to be let out.

i tried to have integrity and tried to have pacience and i tried to be kind enough to controll myself and keep my promise, but it's too much when the person that you made that promise to is pushing you to die. i think they want me dead, and for some fucked up reason i've known this the whole time, i'm still alive, for the moment, i'm still here if ( Read more... )

i'm alright now i guess i didn't go through with it i guess i just had something more than to give up all to a stupid ass hole who doesn't give a shit about anyone else other than herself oh well jeannette can kiss my ass and gabbi can follow suite well that's all i have to say for now.

yes i just said it and it's all thanks to jeannette i hope you've satisfied yourself because you just gave me what i need to die! there's no more reason to live and there's no more struggle after this, because not one more breath will be taken and i don't want either gabbi or jeannette coming to my funeral because they technically committed murder ( Read more... )

i've been stuck at home for two weeks doing nothing but baby-sitting a 7 year old who's more hyper than a rabit on speed, with my sister who is just plain abusive, and nuthing to do but clean the house (and i muct say... it looks pretty damn good) the lack of activity here it driving me insane, and i don't think i can go any longer without cutting( ( Read more... )

hmm it's been too long since i've written, i got the lacuna coil cd yesterday, i switched schools my new one sucks but i have a crush on one of the girls that i know from summer camp, i'm not sure if she likes me or not, so i don't plan to ask her out. umm........ yesterday i deleted a virus from my computer, and now it works right and my ( Read more... )

hi i'm ok today again i got to e-mail megan i miss her to death. ne ways i'm chattin' with jeannette nuthing goin on i got mail from stephen he gave me his screen name on aol i miss him too. i'm mad at fernando cause he hasn't talked to me in like a week so now i have to pound him when he gets back. i don't like him but best friends are supposed to ( Read more... )

i'm checking my e-mail umm not really much to update on my cousin came here from chicago and then left it was ok but i wished she could've stayed longer well that's about it until next week.

hi erribody i feel suprisingly good, despite the fact that steven hasn't e-mailed me back yet he said he would be bussy ne way. my brother is right here sleepin on my lap. HE'S SOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE! umm. my friend julio wants to express his love for another one of my friends by a poorly written letter. he writes great but his handwriting sux big lol. ( Read more... )

wow i can't remember the last time i've ever been this happy and bussy at the same time. i don't got alot of time so i'll try to type as fast as i can. i got to read the letter from one of my best friends (megan) she got so close to telling someone, but didn't cause she got scared again. i feel really bad for her but i hope she tells sum1 soon or ( Read more... )