I am awful at maintaining friendships. I give it another year before all the friends on my myspace who aren't my top friends will be complete strangers, and all the people I actually know will have deleted me. Yay.

Life is so transitory, it's so exciting to look back on your life with more perspective than you could have ever imagined to have in a particular moment in time. So I decided to pick a month to look back on, January 2005 seemed to have a lot of good/embarrassing quotes by yours truly. I am truly thankful for how far I've come since that time in my ( Read more... )

I've been hurting for 6 months now...I haven't been able to focus. I need to get ahold of myself.

7 a.m. in the spring time. The ground is wet and the air is cold. Winter just won't let go. I can barely keep my body moving, I let the sound of the birds chirping carry me along. They seem happier today. They provide enough energy for my body, but it's not quite enough to raise my spirits. How about an uplifting tune? No luck. Just doesnt pack the ( Read more... )

Ya know, it's really ironic how one of the main ingredients in our breakups is my "need and desire to see other people," but yet when we break up, all I can think about is you. Fuck you for not feeling the same...

I just need to vent until this is all out of my system.

Everything reminds me of us...and there is no us any more. You made sure of that, like I knew you would. Knew that while I sat around thinking about how much you were hurting, you were sitting around thinking about how much you were hurting as well ( Read more... )

When I was younger, I was always happier just playing by myself. But now I can't stand the thought of being alone. My roommates are in Texas, I'm sitting in my empty apartment thinking about my next move. Houston took all of our mutual friends, which were basically the only friends I have up here. Oh well, he was closer to all of them anyway. He ( Read more... )

I really don't know where to begin. I guess I should start by telling you that I'm not mad at you, and that I completely understand why you don't want to hang out with me. I don't know, I guess I just have a lot on my mind and want you to know where I'm coming from ( Read more... )

So unhappy with my body image right now. I just feel like it's so easy to lose your way when it comes to taking care of yourself. You start focusing on something like school, a job, relationship, or even just your own thoughts, and the next thing you know you're 10 pounds heavier and your skin looks a little less flawless than it did before. I just ( Read more... )

January 5...Elliptical 20 min, upper body weights
January 6...Elliptical 45 min
January 7...Lower body weights???

I figure the only way things like this work for me is to keep a log of it. Class starts tomorrow. Yay.