It's been so long since I've been here. To read what the past few years of my life were is shocking. Not what I expected to see while I was sitting in my car scribbling furiously the feelings rushing through me. And when I finished my thought was, "These things should be shared". So here they are ( Read more... )

Of late I've been dreaming of dark chocolate covered cherries, the freshest vegetables the earth has to offer, tuna and whole grain carbs, running shoes and a tighter body. Just a few more days until I move back to my childhood home, with more independence than before, but less than I've known the last three years. I'm excited. I'm sad. I'm ready ( Read more... )

I'm tired. Tired of feelings making relationships complicated, tired of having to tip toe around with my personal thoughts for fear they'll be misused, and tired of having to weed out those around me who intend to do me harm. This is my domain, my deep personal thoughts, and this site is a vessel to share those personal thoughts with my best ( Read more... )

I'm awake tonight, anogizing over him like I once did you. No call, no explination, I am of no importance. I thought this could be a good thing. But here I am, alone yet again and tired of the search and chase. I cannot soften the hearts of men. They see me only as a good time. But why is that all I see. Is my loving spirit not as bright as I think ( Read more... )

Justin I'm feeling desperate tonight. I confessed that I had fallen for you even harder than before. I confessed that you hurt my feelings. Since then you've been distant. No time spared to make a phone call. No time spared to share your feelings of love. What is going on here? Am I just paranoid within myself? Am I nurturing yet another monster ( Read more... )

As you read this, keep in mind that my current tone is not one of anger, hurt, disdain, none of that. Just read this like you and I were having a conversation...well, like I was talking and you were listening. But by all means, thoughts and disertations are always welcome ( Read more... )

So here I sit naked and cleansed in warmth and comfort.  I'm thinking back to that night I really noticed you, and wonder when you first noticed me.  I remember warm summer nights with endless smiles, before I lost my grace.  I'm thinking back to that night I wore that colorful dress and you made me feel so beautiful.  We drank, there was music, ( Read more... )

I went to the place where laughter is abundant, lollipops grow on trees, sex is beautiful rather than dangerous, all that glitters is gold, the comfort of arms is merely a whisper away, and the stars dance in the sky.  I was lost in the echo of music as I laid on the floor in my utopia which came to life in the vaulted ceiling where carosuel horses ( Read more... )

I just needed to write tonight.  Of the changing seasons, winds, and skies behind my smiling eyes.  It's tranquil in there.  No longing exists in this reality I have found.  The comfort of arms is merely a whisper away, and lonliness only makes my heart grow fonder.  My love has been baptized in grace and purity and cannot be compromised.  And with ( Read more... )

So here I sit
Trying not to miss you
But I want to touch your face
Inhale your aurora
And embrace your body
Because no one touches me
Quite the way you do
But then again
No one touches me
Quite like he does
When I left you
I had balls
The world was mine
And then a little birdy told me
A nasty littlle secret
That made me fall again
New face still the same game
You ( Read more... )