I want things to be like this forever.

I'm so scared our solo performance show (ON APRIL 24TH AT 7PM IN THE SCENE DOCK THEATRE, IT'S FREE, COME) is going to suck because our teacher has limited our creative output ( Read more... )

It's crazy, but I have JUST enough time to finish outlining Chapter 4 by 3:45AM. And then to outline 11 pages of Chapter 5 by 4:15AM. then to write a solo performance monologue by 4:55AM ( Read more... )

yeahhh so i'm on winter break and i'm just working too much. At Body O Soul, which is weird...'cause i'm almost 20 and it's been, like, four years near. well, more like 3.5, but summer'll be coming real soon. then i can surf again. and enjoy the weather. and run again and obsess again ( Read more... )

Financial Aid from USC = $4,000 < last year.

i am so fucking pissed off.

Both SCs are bubbles. SC is detrimental, however, and SC is not. One is real and selfish the other is fake and selfish and full of denial.

I know, Life. I am lucky.

protected, unprotected, nothing is 100% anything.
you
selfish
little...
oh wait. i WAS (would have been) on your side.

honesty, in this case, would be the best policy. hands down (HANDS DOWN, as ben used to do). hands down.

maybe it was you that broke my heart.
Or maybe it was us, that tore our worlds apart.

and maybe it was me who did said things and wrote such words:
that make you want to vomit
like the mamma for her baby birds.

Under the cool shade of a sycamore ( Read more... )

Holy shit. It's been one year (about half an hour ago) since that one day when my legs began to shake and my heart began to break and everything i ever lived for and believed in was just completely and utterly crushed to the ground and then fuckin' shat on and puked on and then burned.

My legs are kind of soar.