everything is so different.
i suppose thats the way life works though?
change is good.
change can be bad.
its so weird not having you anymore.
but this is what i wanted?
this is what's best for the both of us.
she makes me feel numb.
but im sure he makes you feel like that too.
sometimes i just want to be with you,
hold you close to me.
other times i ( Read more... )

Im so dead. So tired. friggggg. meghan and I have to finish our poster for bio tomorrow, blah. 
I could just fall asleep right now! and I have a test tomorrow. frigggersoooooonnnnsss! Im going
to fail that one too im sure! Yay nancys b-day is really really really soon!
Alanahs having a baby girl. yay. heheh Im excited.
So I got my new car today :) all ( Read more... )

sometimes when we think a chapter in our life has ended, we just need to pick up the book and read the next one.

Whats the hardest part? holding on, or letting go?
how do we love someone so much, and then lust for someone else at the same time?
how do we hurt someone so bad? the ones that love us the most.
we push them away for our own selfishness.
but are we being selfish? we only want to be happy?
what if were not happy anymore with what we have?
how do we try to ( Read more... )

So stressed out with everything. well not everything. just somethings. blah.
Love is so complicated. but worth it.
I want a car. I want to drive more. grrrr.
I dont want my hair to fall out. I dont think it will. but I'v been bleaching the shit out of it. 
Curtis, good job sweetie.
They're making a Sex and the City movie. Yay. I know Saras going to LOVE ( Read more... )

This is my Zappa man. I love him to death.
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so the insaurance guy is here talking to my dad. hopefully we have some. they think it was the hay. dry and then it combusted. we have farm insirance, so from that we might be able to get everything covered. Misty did show up last night, thank god. everyone was accounted for. one of the hay bays started smoking this morning. and then this ( Read more... )

I called my house at about 10:20 tonight from mama shpengis. and as soon as my dad answered the phone I coiuld hear the terror in his voice. something was not right ( Read more... )

Jenna Zumack (or however you spell her name) is a disgusting and rude little bitch. 
Tonight we were at the Davidson Road Fun Fair.  And everything went really good, and was fun.
Then when we were getting ready to leave, Jenna was standing with her mom and other people talking, and when no one there was looking, she dropped her gum out of her mouth ( Read more... )

Stay out of my life and everyone elses.