Why do I feel so numb, so disconnected from everything I know and love. The fractured images of reality don't co-inside with each other like the high gloss mirror it used to be. I bow my head in rememberance of the person I used to be and close my eyes to blind myself from what I am becoming. If there ever was a funeral for the many "me's" of the ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish people would follow the Golden Rule. It's one of the most universal truths that can be acted upon and holds the most value. For those who claim that they are mature enough to be catagorized as an adult I say, "check again". If looks could kill there would have been a masacre at work tonight. Needless to say I am fully tired of my ( Read more... )

Well here it is, another update. Not too sure if I'm in the mood right now to update, but I figured I'd write something for those of you out there in tv land that say, "why hasen't he updated in soo long??" I know I'm boring.........well I dunno. Maybe I'll update more when I get off work tonight. Yeah that sounds like an idea ( Read more... )

You know, I wish the ways of the samurai were still honored in modern day. If only more people could realize that the Japanese had it right. That's why I've decided to adopt the ways of the samurai unto myself. It just seems right in this crazy mixed up world. Though carrying swords is outlawed, it's uses would be limited. I dunno, I'm going to ( Read more... )

Fuck this, goddam journal didn't update properly. I'll do it later. Fuck it. Thats all I have to say about it.

All I have to say is, fuck ex girlfriends. Why can't they follow the rules. We=no more, alright just to clarify that. Second rule, don't get in my way. You've done it once before and it ain't happening again. Third rule........... Dammit I hate it when that happens. I can't enjoy an Oreo frappucino with a girl I like without having an ex have the ( Read more... )

7 hours, 600 some odd miles, and 6 cokes later I have returned from a weeks long vacation to Austin. Thats right folks, the fucking capital for Texas. And let me tell you, place is friggin huge. But yeah gonna go to sleep now and reflect on the fact that I just drove that fucking long on my own. More rambling later.

It's been a while since the last time I updated. Oh well here we go. Missing my friends, need money, want piece of mind, want to forget. Ah who am I kidding. Not in the mood to update.

More later.

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I find myself torn between 2 worlds right now. One world I am happy in (for the most part), in a place where my friends accept me for who I am and what I can give them. The other world is a desolate wasteland of backstabbing smiley glad-hands who sooner piss on my face rather than shake my hand. Though work is sometimes an escape from the trials of ( Read more... )

Wow today came and left pretty fast. Birthdays just don't last as long as they used to when we were kids. Well here I am, 23 years old and a lil wiser than last year. Though some how I still feel disconnected from everything around me. To quote Neo, " ever get that feeling where you're not sure if you're awake or still dreaming." Yeah kinda feels ( Read more... )