pupcake died this morning ( Read more... )

i keep forgetting to breathe ( Read more... )

majorly updated my deviant art page (thanks for reminding me danni) and within an hour 5 people favorited my work. i cannot express in words how good this made me feel. i have not cried for joy in over 3 years.
linksies: http://crashmecrazy.deviantart.com/

all i can think is "what the fuck am i doing?". i've been walking around with this tune in my ears for the past couple of weeks with little room for silence. i feel many things. i am enjoying these things. painful, nostalgic, invigorating. it seems the only time i feel alive is when uncertainty is the only certainty. not confusion, just wide open ( Read more... )

first off, it took me almost an HOUR to figure out how to do an lj cut with an image. i swear i am not retarded, only technologically.
second, this is
( jake. )

update:

milk maid dress
single(woohoo:D)
satanists
painting
mushrooms
abandoned farmhouse
functioning
muppet socks
sea glass
drop city
negatory lyme
jungle hair
1/2 off sushi
bathroom parties
shaved
tix
support+encouragement
scissor sisters
sweet cords
the ladies

i fit the stereotype to a "t". i miss being with a womyn. i am absolutely in love with jake, but it's so different, at least as far as the womyn i choose go. he stimulates an entirely different part of my being; intellectually, sexually. i don't know how to deal with the fact that i know this will always be an issue, and truth be told, the day he ( Read more... )

i wonder if humyn connection would improve with simply giving an honest answer when given a mundane question. for example, yesterday a womyn came into work and (mostly) out of habit i asked how her day was going.rather than giving a one word response, as we are all so accustomed to, she opened up a dialog with me about how our days we ACTUALLY ( Read more... )

WANTED: one pair of leopard footie pajamas ( Read more... )

thank goodness the holidays are over. cheese and rice ( Read more... )