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don't say it.
don't tell me anything because you think that's what i need or want to hear. because you're probably the only person i know that can tell when i am having a truly bad day. people don't see those much for a reason.
i don't want or need anything that you're not willing to give.
i am a big girl. i know when i am making a bed i am going to have to lie ( Read more... ) -
me and my high horse
look at me with all the advice for people around me. when i don't have sense enough to follow it for myself.
i know i am holding back. but to drop that bomb...give it a name...terrifies me. so much more than just myself at stake. and i have never really been one to put myself first. since the first of the GB was born.
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almost a year has passed...
and i am back where i started:
faced with a choice i am not willing to make.
so most of the time half my head is elsewhere, no matter what i am doing
someone called me a workaholic once.
maybe.
however,
it's my best facet. i can control most everything. and even if i lose that control... i have it back almost immediately.
why wouldn't i live in ( Read more... ) -
tryin' to wrap my head around stuff...
mostly because i don't get it either. but there it is. weird. we are what we are. and we don't know either. so we continue on in limbo. because it's a choice i can't make. the GB always comes 1st.
not very often do i meet someone who i can't help but go out of my way to encourage, watch grow, and hope like hell that once they move on will want to ( Read more... ) -
stress
super stressed out right now.
i am sitting at the pier watching the water because i don't want to go in early.. again.. to listen to people bitch and whine about having to actually come to work to get paid.
i'm exhausted.
i need a vacation.
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control
there are a million things that need to be said, but my need to be in control at all times means that the words will never be spoken unless i am completely wasted.
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