okay so... I moved back in... thinking, we can get through this. Everyone is mad at B and B still doesn't see what he did wrong. Everyone is mad at me for not leaving including his friends. My self- esteem hurts, my heart hurts, I don't understand why he would want to hurt me.... I just want some answers. I am so lost, I mean he was supposed to be ( Read more... )

okay so my life has changed maybe for the better, who knows, all I know is ths I am pissed and not about to let shit happen. Okay, so the big news is that yes, I have broken up with B. Big shocker. Why??? Because we went a party and he grabbed this other girl's ass. He totally didn't care. It hurt me so bad, I started bawling and crying. Eric got ( Read more... )

hey, i forgot to mention that B is growing more and more curious about God. Its really cool, I don't want to sound like a holy roller or anything but its just cool because normally he just dismisses the thought God exists but now he is interested. And now, he even went to go see Passion of the Christ with me the other day and I know it moved him. I ( Read more... )

Start with the day before this one to understand ( Read more... )

Okay so things between B and I are like quite excellent now.. I guess he always senses when I am disappointed and fixes it. But hings now are just harmonious between us and everything. I am going to be taking the postal exam next week. I am SO nervous because if I get a high score that means I will get hired as mail carrier and make $16/hr (at the ( Read more... )

Okay so here is an update. I did not get into trouble.. my job is such a joke and i get paid better than everyone else (knock on wood). Anyway, Eddie is about tog et kicked out because he totally went off on B the other day claiming there was a rumor that when I held a birthday party for B last year, some couple had sex on Eddie's bed. I have no ( Read more... )

Okay so last night waa a trip. I went out to Buffalo Wild Wings and convionced one of the girls there that I was 22. So then I drank many long island ice teas simply because some girls wouldn't finish them and hand them to me and then we went to Rack Daddy's, where I continued to drink ice teas and beer. At that point, i didn't care at all and I ( Read more... )

okay so i am really fucked up now so if you don;t undestand what the fuck i am saying- you are sane!!!! anyway, i htink i lie hte harlot of eric's because she is cool nNSN WE GET ALONG/ sp its all cool oh shit, i can;t type wirth shit. i AD LIKE 5 LONG ISLAND ICE TEASE AND 3 BIERS AND I AM SO FUCKED OP BUT ITS OK BUT LIKE ANYWAY, SHE IS COOL ( Read more... )

Okay these are one of those days where absolutely nothing looks good on you and then you start obsessing with how fat you are, how ugly your hair is, or how small your boobs are... well.. for me anyway. This day was one of those days and the moutain everest forming on my lower right of my chin was not helping... but whatever. My boyfriend is yes, ( Read more... )

Okay so my point of view of Eddie was completely transformaed completely back around to disrespect... because B told me that the reason why he keeps his old gf around while he is chasing this other girl is because he has KID with her!! Yeah supposedly he got his ex knocked up and she had the kid while he was overseas. She gave the kid up for ( Read more... )