i think i just realized why i hate thomas so much.

i hate him because after all that shit he put me through, he still catches my attention.

i hate him because after all the shit he did to me, i still get a twinge of jealousy seeing him laughing with other girls, and i'm not right there laughing with him.

i hate him because seeing him online still ( Read more... )

even though i didnt really wanna go to maryland...i must admit.
i had fun.
for once.
=]
i think it's because it was just me, mom, the dog and the Markley's.
no giant party.
no work.
no annoying little brats.
just rest and relaxation.
but the thing is,
my mom told mrs marnie about thomas.
and then she tried schooling me on how to "deal with him"
and that the " ( Read more... )

1. seperate ways (worlds apart) -- journey
2. land of counfusion -- disturbed
3. livin on a prayer -- bon jovi
4. rebirthing -- skillet
5. she will be loved -- maroon 5
6. hit the floor -- bullet for my valentine
7. carry on my wayword son -- kansas
8. oh yeah (work) -- lil scrappy
9. forsaken -- skillet
10. don't fear the reaper -- blue oyster cult
11. ( Read more... )

why is it that i can help people with their problems, but i cant even begin to solve mine??
how is that possible?
i mean, i've helped out therese when she was depressed about kyle.
drianna when she was confused about chris.
aaron when he's all moody.
kara [[back when we *actually* talked]] about heather.
and i know that there's more people.

yet, my ( Read more... )

my playlist [on the myspace] is schweet!

1. Seperate Ways (World's Apart) -- Journey
2. Land of Confusion -- Disturbed
3. Living on a Prayer -- Bon Jovi
4. Rebirthing -- Skillet
5. She Will Be Loved -- Maroon 5
6. Hit the Floor -- Bullet For my Valentine
7. Carry on my Wayward Son -- Kansas
8. Oh Yeah (Work) -- Lil Scrappy ft. Sean Paul (from Youngbloodz)  ( Read more... )

nothing, absolutely nothing i did today seems lucky at all.
noooooooooothiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing.
so now i'm mad.
okay, not really.
i just really hoped that my horoscope would come true for once.
just this one time.
but i mean, there is still 2 hours and 54 minutes of this day.
highly unlikely that anything lucky will happen, but you never know.

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random.
but the mom and i were gonna go to Kyoto's.
ya know, do the whole Japanese Habachi Grill on the USA's birthday.
thats how we roll.
but with only 2 people, it sucks.
so we called the Smith's.
Mr Carter is on duty or something and Mrs Joanne doesnt exactly like Japanese stuff.
so we decided to go to Melting Pot.
but they were closed!
i was mad.
and ( Read more... )

forreal.

thursday//friday night SALEM SUNDEVIL football.
stayin up way too late partying cuhhs we won.
again.
then goin to school and talkin all about it.
gettin the anticipation up for the next game.

saturday//sunday CAROLINA PANTHER football.
cheerin on the favorite pro team.
in the same room as your parents who are rootin for someone else.
throwin ( Read more... )

THERE

IS

HOPE

!!!

i finally got to talk to thomas.
over a message, but still.
i threw out the option of getting back together.
he says he needs time to think.
and this time, i'm gonna give him as long as he needs.
and i'm defenitely not going anywhere without my phone.

=0!
i cant wait to tell ashleigh.

suddenly i'm not so sad about all this.
maybe it's the song i added on my profile?
idk, but i like it.
i realized.
he's gonna regret this.
well. maybe not.
but if he does.
he's gonna have to do some mucho convincing.
i mean, if he called right now i wouldnt jump on it and be like "YES YES YES LET'S GO BACK OUT!!!!"
but i wouldnt be like "OH HELL NO!"
the ( Read more... )