I want a dog.  A big dog.  Like a golden retriever.  I think a golden retriever would be a good fit for me.  A good match.  Or maybe a chocolate lab.  I used to always say I wanted a medium sized dog, because that's all I'd known.  But I want to be different from what I've known.  I've always chosen things because it's what I've known.  I want to ( Read more... )

So I can't go to work Wednesday or Thursday and possibly not even Friday because I have the flu.  My throat hurts like hell when I swallow and my nose is stuffy as all hell.  Doc says I'm dehydrated too.  Great.  So despite the fact that I've got the flu, I spent all Monday night baking a heart shaped cake for Jeremiah for Valentine's day (with ( Read more... )

Ok listen up.  I'm REALLY going to try my hardest to lose weight.  I'm not happy with my weight or how I look. The last time I took the time to take care of myself I felt so good about myself.  Of course then I had more time.  I was only working one job and started later in the day so I could get to the gym early in the morning and again in the ( Read more... )

So nice.  While hugging Jeremiah good-bye before I left his house tonight, I took in a nice long breath to smell him one last time for the night.  All the way home I kept smelling him.  His wonderful scent was was planted in my nose.  It was so strong that I could swear he was sitting right next to me.  The whole way I kept taking more deep breaths ( Read more... )

I'm so angry.  Pissed.  Pissed isn't even a strong enough word to cover it.  I feel like my job is fucking me over.  It's fucking up everything.  Everything including what's outside of work.  It's making me so angry that I'm beginning to hate myself.  And if I hate myself, how can anyone love me?  My job is going to cause my relationship to fall ( Read more... )

It's bad when you've been spoiled by seeing your boyfriend almost every night over the last 3 months.  Because then when things start to beef up at his job and you're only seeing him on the weekends, you tend to feel lonely at night when you come home from work.  Especially when you've had a bad day at work...or a bad FEW days at work.  All I want ( Read more... )

I feel so many different things right now......I'm so happy, but at the same time I'm terrified.  I told myself I didn't want to go down that path again.  Too afraid of the possibility of getting hurt.  I can't let myself think that way.  I can't just let something from the past ruin something wonderful that I have now.  Hearing him say those three ( Read more... )

It seems like I've found myself a great guy. :)  He is just so sweet that I can't help but smile everytime a thought of him so much as brushes past my mind.  Ahhhh, the good life. :)

On a side note, I found this in someone I used to know's LJ post......I wonder if it has anything to do with me...hmmm... hahahaha!

It seems that I look around and * ( Read more... )

Ok, so I was looking at the Packer schedule, right?  The FIRST game of the season is September 10....against the Bears!  A HUGE game in my book.  And you know what?  I won't be here!  :(  I'm going to be in San Francisco with Jeremiah.  I'm going to miss a huge game!!!!  The FIRST game and it's against the BEARS!  I won't even be here to watch it ( Read more... )

I'm going to San Fransisco!