Why do I get like that?  I feel so blah.  And now I've got him all upset with me and worried at the same time.  Dare I say I hate myself?  Ok so that's too harsh.  But I'm upset with myself.  i don't care to say why.  I just am.  If I don't stop with all this blaming myself crap, I'm going to lose him.  It's just hard NOT to blame myself.  If ( Read more... )

Man....who knew it would be so difficult to not break my own rules?  Shit man...Difficult.  I set rules only to end up breaking them the next day.  Does that mean I am turning into something I'm not?  eeek.  No.  It doesn't, does it?  *HUFF ( Read more... )

So it irritates me....his mom hates me.  Why?  I don't know.  She says things that make me sound like some sort of evil bitch.  Today she told me to make sure I didn't keep him out so late because he has to be at work early in the morning.  She made me feel about this big  .   I don't know what I did to her....Jeremiah says it's just the fact that ( Read more... )

Ok so I am all smiles.  Yes, Jeremiah (Or JJ as he prefers to be called) and I are dating, so there is no more confusion going on there.  Let me tell you....it is so nice to have someone so close by.  I love that we can call each other up, decide to go to over there or come here, hop in the car and see each other when we want.  He's a great sweet ( Read more... )

So I've been kinda sorta seeing this guy.  Or maybe I haven't.  I don't really know what is going on.   We've been hanging out a lot lately and all that fun stuff, but I'm not sure what to think about it.  It's nice though, to have someone to cuddle with, and having someone's arms around me while watching a movie.  And it's even nicer to have that ( Read more... )

I hate my job.  I have never actually HATED a job of mine.  Disliked, yes.  But hated?  Never.  About a month ago, a letter was sent out to all employees stating that we could no longer wear open toed or open heeled shoes.  Good bye sandals, hello 90 degree weather.  Not only can we not wear sandals, we cannot wear shorts that are more than 3 ( Read more... )

Kim and Katie spent the night here last night.  They were in Milwaukee for Pride Fest and I offered to let them stay here for the night since they didn't know where they were staying, plus, I haven't seen Kim in well over a month.  It was so nice to hang out with her again, even if it was only for a little while.  I miss her.  All of my other ( Read more... )

Ok, so there's this song called Size Matters by Joe Nichols. Everytime I hear it I think, "wow, this song is written about me!" Of course, I'm sure that every woman who hears this song thinks the same thing, but for now I'm saying this is the theme to my life. Read the lyrics and that's where I'm at

"Size Matters"

Someday she wants a big ol' house ( Read more... )

Alright! I am writing my first entry from my own apartment. It was turned on Friday. Thank God! I was going nuts without it. The internet is my drug ( Read more... )

I LOVE my new place! It feels like home. It's mine, it's me, it's home. I saved for such a long time. Saved for emergency back up money, living room set, and everything else I'd need. I've gotten so many deals. Dad's friend at work has a mom going into assisted living so she needed to get rid of a lot of her stuff. She had a Queen sized guest ( Read more... )