It's been a lifetime since I've even thought about this place. But I needed an outlet and there it was. Didn't think there was any chance I'd figure out the password, and yet here I am. Once again filled with tears feeling overwhelmed, confused, lost. Sitting in my car outside my house because I just can't face anything else today ( Read more... )

I want to be happy....I mean....really deep down true honest happiness. And, I feel stuck. Like...I can't move on, like feeling in the dark and being unable to find it and knowing it's right in front of me. And, it's not just in one area of my life. And, it's not that I'm unhappy...there's so many areas of my life that are amazing...and yet there's ( Read more... )

I think my major issue is that I don't 'deserve' any better.

otherwise...stuff is going on...but I can't bring myself to update my journal for real. But, I couldn't get that satement off my mind and I haven't found time to do a an RET session just yet...thus the need to make an entry.
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woo hoo! I bought my mom's 2000 ford explorer. It's soooo much nicer than the jimmy. I mean...I love the jimmy. But, it's time for a new car ( Read more... )

Ha. Isn't life funny. I hung out with a really cool guy today that I met on ldsmingle.com and I just find that hillariouse. It was really nice to hang out with a mormon and somebody that I could talk to and that wasn't trying to get me in bed or sizing up the marriage option. He was just really nice and it was pretty comfortable. Which is very cool ( Read more... )

I haven't felt like this for a while. I mean...sure I get a little lonely sometimes. And, sure...deep down the truth is I want to find someone. I want to get married and have kids...I just hide it because well...because I don't want anybody to know. I'm afraid I'll never have it. And, it scares me. I can pretend to have faith but the truth is...I'm ( Read more... )

Some internet personage [12:23 AM]: hi i like ur profile ( Read more... )

Scott [12:09 AM]: The Promenade from "Pictures at an Exhibition" by Mussoursky ( Read more... )

I asked the infinetly Magic ball a question, and this was the answere ( Read more... )

wisdom teeth came out this week...not fun at all. umm...business is going pretty well. Last week was my biggest yet...I had like fifteen paying clients. This week I had to cancel them all due to my stupid teeth. oh well. Anyway...I suppose that's all. Oh...I joined ldsmingle. ha! Nobody talks to me though. oh well. I'll cut it off after this month ( Read more... )