i love chris postin so much. i wish everybody knew chris because if you did, you would never stop laughing. kyle's house was pretty cool last night. i wondered for a while why i wasnt invited to jeff's lake house and found out something really fucking funny. a person who shall not be named was there and jeff was afraid that i would kill him. which ( Read more... )

i was going to update someting else, but like a lot of things lately, i found it better left unsaid. i work tonight and i dont know if im going to make it. i feel like shit and my head is fucked up. all sorts of fucked up inside. i guess im just going to have to find a way to prove to myself that sometimes, there is just no hope. you cant win em

i cant live anymore. i had to see exactly what i didnt want to. and now. i cant even get my head straight. i might as well accept ill never get what i want. i failed.

you wont let me try
because you dont want me to
you dont care anymore

im a fucking joke.

yeap im missin that shit right about now.

all of a sudden, i dont feel good.

ever had he butterflies. i have. ever get them after they left for a while. i did.

what a shitty day. dammit.

a side note to anyone who has what they want and doesnt want to lose it.

dont fuck up. itll cost ya.

even though the last post specified a lot of my thoughts lately, i missed one ( Read more... )

im a fool.

i cant wait till my mom gets here.

well. looks like everything will work out. my mom says i have choices lots of them, but i think shes smokin crack because theres really only 2 choices. i could either leave college and have a shitty relationship with my parents for a really long time, struggle with a job and a place and so on and so forth, with no car and no money to start with... ( Read more... )