I don't understand myself sometimes ;( I develop the most unhealthy crushes. Lol ( Read more... )

I never thought that I would have fallen for you the way I did. I admit that when I met you that you were nothing more than to fill the void that was in my heart left from the others that came before you. From Brad, from Dusty, even from Roy (even though I purposely distanced myself from the latter). I guess I was just the type that couldn't help ( Read more... )

Maybe it is better for me to be alone. I've spent so much time lamenting on Craig and thinking of ways to make him happy that I ultimately forgot how to make myself happy. I relied on him too much to say the right things... which, 99% of the time, he didn't. I suppose it was my fault for placing such a burden on someone else. No one really needs ( Read more... )

There comes a point when you got to just admit defeat. That's just a part of being human. You have to lose. You have to, once in a while, or you forget what joy is like when things are going right ( Read more... )

Irony ( Read more... )

( unfinished blog about my alcoholism )

That's it. I'm done ( Read more... )

I thought no sleep was better than having nightmares bombard me the entire night ( Read more... )

I find it ironic how I went from having no dreams at all to having nightmares I can't remember. The nightmares scream at me to stay in their hellish world even as I wake up. It seems like forever until I escape. In between my subconscious and conscious place, I try to remember these dreams, only to be left unable to grasp onto those fleeting ( Read more... )

A loud thud pulled me out from the confines of happy sleep time. I opened one eye to catch a glimpse of the clock. 1230. Who the hell could you be having a conversation with that at this time that required your stern “I don’t give a f*ck” voice? I silenced my breathing and listened ( Read more... )