Its been over three months now and all I can think at this moment in time is how can you keep believing in love when you thought you shared a love that was strong enough to over come anything, and then one day you come to find out that love you were sure was so strong wasn’t shared? I’ve been in love before but I have never felt so sure about ( Read more... )

So I guess I’m writing today if for nothing else then so I can look back to see how things went down at the time and what I felt. Long story short somewhat out of boredom one day I made a fake Myspace profile. I set it to private and used Brian’s default picture as mine. I sent Ciera some message like hey check out this site and she sent this ( Read more... )

Today I’ve been thinking about the end of my last relationship . And thinking about it now, I realize how I was starting to build up a lot of resentment and anger because of how she would try and control me. And I held it in until one day I started letting it out in arguments that I wouldn’t normally even bother to disagree with her about, because ( Read more... )

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For the first time in 2 years I'm in debt, I have no money, I suck!

I just realized my birthday is rapidly approaching and I care less then ever.

So lets see in the last month and a half I've lost my girlfriend, failed my 5 credit chem 141 class and got a OWI. The Marines are calling to me more and more everyday.

Blah fucking blah blah blah, I can't wate to join the Marines and get the fuck out of here.

I write Ciera a letter putting everything out there, how I felt, what I wanted for us, why I did some stupid things, apoligizeing for my mistakes and telling her the truth about one more mistake she didn't know about and what do I get ( Read more... )

I just did the math for the ring I bought for Ciera, If I worked 40 hours a week and didn't have taxs taken out it would take over a months worth of pay to pay for it, and that doesn't even include what I'm paying for the insurace on the ring. "I SUCK"