So, I talked with my mom last night and she said that the reason I am staying with Tozias is because I’m not allowing myself to get over him by still staying with him and sleeping with him and things like that. The thing is… I still love him… a lot, is that because I haven’t allowed myself to move on ( Read more... )

Wel... maybe I can go... I just need ot be a little creative.... More later...

So yeah. Finally back from DC and back at work… oh joy. For those of you who don’t know I work in the Office of Student Financial Aid at The University of Arizona. It’s a really crappy job where I sit on the phone all day and answer questions that could be answered of people knew how to read a website. In any case, money is money, right ( Read more... )

So, here I am in Chicago airport in my last layover, waiting to return home. I'm really excited to be getting back and I can't wait to see all my friends again ( Read more... )

Well, after some careful thought I figure it would still be a good idea for me to go to AC. Why knows, maybe it'll do me some good and maybe I'll forget about some of the problems I have here. Therefore I am going to TRY to go to Anthrocon, baring that I actually have the money to go. The outlook looks good, however ( Read more... )

After a totally sleepless night filled with crying and regret I am finding that I'm still in the same place I was last night. My heart breaks for Silver... like it's crying out for him. No matter how many times I tried to tell myself that I can't have him, it wouldn't shut up... it would just keep feeling like it needed him... I can't seem to stop ( Read more... )

Ok, heres the deal. I've been living my life, as of late, through a haze of lies. I've been lying to myself about everything so I don't have to deal with the cruelty of real life and the painful consequences of my own actions ( Read more... )

Wow, what a fucking few days. It seems that, in a literal and symbolic sense, that when it rains, it pours. Christmas went off without a hitch, it was nice to see my family and get some really nice gifts in the process, like a leather jacket for instance that I'll eventually have a picture of. However, directly following Christmas, I seem to have ( Read more... )

Hey there, sorry I havent posted in a while, things have been UNBER hectic for me as of late. However, I am proud to say that I am doing a lot better, even if I am minus one wolfie ( Read more... )

It's over... no more charade... no more. It's over between me and Michael.... I wasn't willing to be a liability to him in thew Air Force anymore. Apparently Tiger wolf has all this power over every aspect of the military that he could have him outed for any fucking reason at all. So yeah, if I;m not good enough and Silver isn't willing to fight to ( Read more... )