when I feel like ripping out people's hearts, or stabbing someone in the face, I feel the tension in side of me yearning to let the insane side of me escape from the depths of my brain. Every feeling I've ever had rushes through me stinging and burning every inch of muscle I have. When I feel like people are keeping things from me, especially ( Read more... )

oh...the month of february. I hate it! I hate the whole month and the way that everything and every person just makes me want to rip out my spleen and puke blood. Maybe I hate it because I have to see couples every other second making out on a side walk, or those stupid valentine's day commercials that make me want to rip out my eyes. As much as it ( Read more... )

Guess who's having the best week ever ( Read more... )

I love it how every time I want to go somewhere or want to do something, Andi never wants to go and wines about how she's "busy". But when she wants to go somewhere I'm expected to drop whatever I'm doing and go with. A little fucked up I think! I guess if I want something done I guess I'll go do it by myself

Yesterday, I figured was going to be the routine thursday, get up go to class all day, come home play on the computer, but it wasn't. So here's the story ( Read more... )

Where are you going ( Read more... )

Another good day for me, woke up shaved the horrendously hairy legs, brought Andi some lunch, went to Borders on Chicago St. bought a book, after I bought four books last night off Amazon for school. But I'm super pumped for class tomorrow b/c I'm dropping my geo class, and hopefully taking a class online!! I'm having a blast in classes, I have ( Read more... )

Today was my first and probably best day of classes I've ever had, as long as my first class of the day is excluded from my list of fun. I get to spend all day two days a week for nine hours on my favorite program ever!!!! MAYA bitches!!!!! The program in which I want to work on for the rest of my life!!! NINE hours!!!!(I'm going a bit over board ( Read more... )

Ok I am leaving in two hours to start my vacay. I will start off in a week in Maine. Hopefully snowboarding, and seeing a moose. Then I will be back in good ol B-town or EP for two weeks chillin with the girls the fam and so forth. So if you wanna see me and chill hit me up on my celly. 1-309-303-6082. Holla at me. Sarah I'll be callin you to check ( Read more... )

Alright, I've realized after reading things about myself from another persons point of view, that I am not the person I thought I was. I thought I truly cared about others, and could be there mentally and emotionally for my best friends. Well, I can't. I can barely handle myself, mentally. I'm a mind fuck, I play with people's emotions, I play ( Read more... )