So I can't stop thinking about how that I'm not going to be able to let myself fall in love again. Right now I'm blaming it on timing and not really wanting to be in a relationship. Let me rephrase that in a way that sounds more like my thoughts...I do want a relationship, but I don't think I can let myself feel that again, without thinking that I ( Read more... )

GOD!!!! I miss her so much it hurts. I just wish she would talk to me so I can figure out what has happened to my life. Before her, I didn't doubt myself, I didn't really have much to lose, but now...I've lost everything. I feel so empty with out her. She made me feel like I had something, she made me want to do something with myself, she made me ( Read more... )

let's see...I wanted to post here, because I know that I have things that I want to say but can't put them on myspace. Let's see what it is ( Read more... )

So I recently got back from a trip to Mexico. And let me tell you that a vacation was just what I needed. I still feel pretty good. My mind only haunts me when I start thinking too much. Which it does quite often when I'm alone. The day before I left I had this dream. A dream that felt so real I could feel the touch on my skin still lingering when ( Read more... )

I want her back so bad. I would sell my soul to the devil to get her back. I would do anything to get back that feeling she gave me. I loved that girl more than she will ever know. Our pictures, our songs, our movies, our TV shows...I can't stop seeing her every time something of "ours" is in front of me. Even stuff that was her, makes me want to ( Read more... )

So it's been awhile since I posed here. Mainly b/c I get too involved with myspace. ANYWAY!!!! The past two weeks have been awesome. I'm actually happy again. I have my moments where I wish I could go back and start all over, but I guess I've really learned that hitting the bottom and dragging my ass along the sludge was just the end to a life ( Read more... )

You Are 82% Evil
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I've been trying to hard lately to get Andi to talk to me. Even for a little bit. I've e-mailed her, texted her, Imed her...everything. She changed her cell number b/c of Nicole, and the only way I can get a hold of her is trying to call the apartment. I know I left Chicago because I was pissed at what she did, but I just needed some time to get ( Read more... )

It's been a month since shit went down in chi-town, and I think I'm almost recovered from the blow. For the most part. I still get that urge every once in awhile to call the chicagoans, but yet I don't for the simple fact I don't want to be reminded. So what am I doing now. I'm working at Dick's in Footwear, staying occupied with the girls, drinkin ( Read more... )

So i've kinda been ignoring my precious live journal, but mostly it's because I can post on myspace and get more readers, but I really don't care about that right now. What I really care about is ranting and that is what I'm going to do right now ( Read more... )