If I could write a note to god this is what it would say ( Read more... )

I feel my life is like one dead end after another. The moment I get going along a path I think my life is heading, I run smack into a HUGE sign saying dead end. Then I must turn back, and pick up all the parts that I've dropped along the way, waste the gas getting back to the main road, which in the end might end up being a dead end as well. I ( Read more... )

1. Be myself ( Read more... )

Ok for an update for my LJ people. I dropped out of school, moved back to bloomington, and am looking for a job ( Read more... )

when you expect the worst to happen and it doesn't, is it bad that I get more angry that it hasn't happened yet?

I feel as though something is going to happen, and as much as I wish it was going to be good, I know it's not going to be, but I hope I wrong

What I still don't understand about myself ( Read more... )

Sooo...I started a new job today. And for those of you who know me, know that I've worked in one industry my whole working career. Ice Cream. I figured with my skillZ (Z make everything cooler) and my past experience that I would throw in my application at yet another ice cream place, but this time not at Dairy Queen or at a tiny ice cream bar but ( Read more... )

hatred. loathing. despise. detest ( Read more... )

There's nothing more that I hate than wanting to quit something so bad, and everyone around me stopping me. At this point in my schooling I know I've come to far to give up, but yet, I want to so bad because I don't want this life anymore. I'm not good enough...I'm not smart enough, I'm not tough enough, and most of all I'm not creative enough. I ( Read more... )

Note to self...don't skip class on Valentine's day to be around two people you like hanging out with only to watch them fawn over each other. I now want to rip out my own eye's and squish them like grapes. Fuckin gag me with a sharp twig from a thorn tree!!!