Driving, & Running, to go ( Read more... )

( Just wanted to save this )

I got a call on my birthday from Beth. Cameron's platoon was hit by an IED, and he was in the hospital. He is out now, and is alright. I'm not quite sure about his injuries, as she had only got to talk to him once. From another soldier (I knew him from Korea) I was told that two soldiers in his platoon had died. Its funny.. you never think about ( Read more... )

Its time to unload, because I think it is much needed. Right now, in my life, I feel incredibly confused. Actually, I feel a broad spectrum of emotions, but the more I seem to talk about them, the better I seem to understand them. Mike being gone has left me sort of in a state of distress. I feel so lost with myself. I went from getting up every ( Read more... )

I feel like every time I come home, I feel more and more out of place. I come back, and I don't know where I fit. It just doesn't feel right. I don't enjoy growing up sometimes. I live in different state, which I only have one friend.. and honestly I feel more alone when I am here, than anywhere. I want my husband back. Especially on my birthday, I ( Read more... )

I feel so :(
Being home just makes me miss Mike even more.
Its so hard.. and it just hurts my heart when I think of how long there is to go.
I know it will be ok, and I know I am strong.
I just hate it, and its dumb, and I don't like it.
And Michigan is cold. And that sucks.
I'm greatful. I'm greatful. I'm greatful.
Lets hope this makes me feel

( Things that make me go hmm )

Me (12:18:24 PM): Ill still love you when you have old balls
Him (12:18:33 PM): thank you
Me (12:18:47 PM): ill still love you when your boobs sag to your feet
Him (12:19:02 PM): I think that's what real love is.
Me (12:19:18 PM): I don't think there is any other definition quite worth writing.

Not a day goes by in which I don't ask myself that question ( Read more... )

Name: Lydia McCarter-Spelman ( Read more... )