I've met someone. He's different. Yet i know he will break my heart. He's an army guy. I knew him once when we were both innocent. We lived with a free mind free heart laughed with a carelessness not realizing one day we would be a part of the darkness in this world. He's cheated on his life and previous marriage just as i have. We are the same yet ( Read more... )

I find it strange that even in the happiness of this life I am still dreaming of more. We are a species that encompasses desire! Desire of the flesh, desire of the taste, desire, desire, desire of more! I crave sex from the most gut wrenching insides of my mind. It's as if at any moment I may become lost in my obsessions of touch, taste, ( Read more... )

The last few months have taught me that I am insane!!! I really think I'm lost. Why can't I be happy? I smile, I laugh, and I think happiness but it isn't so it's just dark and alone.

I found that great someone...Ryan. Turns out he was perfect for me. I blew it haha of course I did don't I always! I wanted him but was afraid and ran away then came then ran away again then tryed to come back but was turned down, hard core. Will anyone ever love me above all else. Will i ever be the center of another person's world or will I ( Read more... )

Quote the Raven "Nevermore". Today is harder than the rest. He looked at the messages, the ones I've left, the ones I never thought he would read. It hurt because I know he read them but he left nothing behind well nothing but a new picture for his profile and a new name deletedaccount wo... I think it finished won't be back. :( :'( This is worse ( Read more... )

It's been about a month now since Gary dumped me to marry his woman of nearly 16 yrs ( Read more... )

I have such wonderful news Gary did not leave me he's just going through something right now it will be a few weeks before I hear from him. I am so happy I miss him so much. Although, I'm still having a hard time staying faithful. but I'm doing okay when I thought he left me I Skype some guy named Liam from london plus I leaned on George when I ( Read more... )

So Gary had left me I think? I misses him terribly I feel my heart has shattered and only the darkness no the stillness of death is all that remains.

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I'm feeling lost and lonely again. Why, why can't I feel like normal ppl? I look ay them and I cry inside. "please, oh please don't let then see the pain inside. Dont let my eyes give away the fear the agony of a life alone a life of despair. My life."

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Ok so I have become obsessed with him and I only made him hate me!! What the hell is wrong with me? I called and text him every day this last week. Damn way to obsessed. I even drove by his house like everyday. I went out not wanting to see him but I ended up seeing him then I got really fuck ass drunk and harassed him then say out in my car to ( Read more... )