Have you ever loved someone but not really loved enough to know if it really is love or just your heart and mind messing with you? huh I think Ryan is the one for me but I dont know if it's real or just the fact that he dumped me or not. I really miss him holding me and I've never ever been able to sleep with someone holding me before but with him ( Read more... )

Why is he being so cruel! Hes broken me doesn't he see that? I'm crying all throughout the day. He has torn out the fragments of my heart and scattered them all over the place. The parks, his mothers, my car, his truck, his home, and left me nothing. I still feel but it's all pain now and hurt I thought I could turn it off like all the other times ( Read more... )

What is Love ( Read more... )

Well George and I have come to an agreement neither I nor he love one another and Colin isn't really Colin his real name is Gary! LOL And I allowed him to facebook me hehehe. I met someone who is consuming my time and fulfilling my lusty side. hehehe his name is Ryan and damn he is good at getting me off and more than once. Damn we fuck at least ( Read more... )

I'm alone in my room bored out of my mind. I just turned 18 and have nothing else better to do, other than chat on-line. "Hi guys did anyone miss me?" Nothing than a single name appears on my screen. Englishgentleman. My heart pounds so hard I'm afraid it will leave my chest. Through sweaty hands I manage to get the words on the screen."Hi, how was ( Read more... )

So now I'm confused because George is like totally cool to me and he even dressed up real nice for my Birthday. He is gorgeous, wait... are guys gorgeous or are the just handsom and sexy, or even just cute? Well, he is gorgeous and sexy to me. I am in love with him and man am I in some serious need for theorapy. I love George because he is sexy and ( Read more... )

I had a fight with George. He never talks to me now. He is always busy doing something. I am busy to but I find time to talk to him. This sux. But I am talking to Colin he is Brit. LOL So I got Englishman and Brit. HEHEHE Colin is kind and nice and so hot he has a big cock. Georges cock is nice but not as big. ttyl

George is damaging to me but I don't want to get rid of him he makes me feel so alive. But he likes calling me mommy and wants me to like it. :{ I just not sure what todo.

So I found someone to cyber sext. He is in England of course, so far away but he makes me want to touch myself and do stuff I wouldn't normally do. His name is George. At least I think it is he could be lying. He has suicidal tendencies, :$ I just hope he never follows through. I cyber sext with another man and he got so angry but gave me ( Read more... )

I am lost in life. I have questions but most are stupid. Lol Really just random thoughts, like will the sky ever be another color other than blue or clouded grey. Will i ever accomplish more than my own selfish wants. Will earth collide with the sun as scientist believe or will it right itself. I mean we have a gravity pull just like the sun so ( Read more... )