have date set up with sam for thursday or friday tehe. mom is worried about me actually getting to rest while im at home for my visit. i dont care about rest i want to spend time with my family. i love them. end of story im worried about money. i expected more i guess. whatever. im angry. very angry. i have lots of anger lol im hoping o melt that ( Read more... )

so i've been struggling with whether or not i need to write this down. but today my emotions are overflowing. now im sitting here staring at this screen and my words just wont come out. ok lets start where it began. i had a feeling u know like something is missing. so for a while i've been looking. through the yellow pages and through google. ( Read more... )

this past weekend. i finally decided to visit Johnna to meet her son Daren. because Allison and mike were out of town in Ohio. and to be quite honest i was very jealous they were getting to visit and see my family and I'm not. i mean i love the weather here in GA and being close to the beach but nothing can replace the embrace of my mother and the ( Read more... )

im struggling with how i want my life to proceed. i had a plan when i came here but im so unhappy away from my family. i need a companion you know someone who shows affection and no matter how close allison and i are i just cant get that from her bahaha. i enjoy getting to know new people learning their likes and dislikes is fun and interesting. i ( Read more... )

its been a long time. my life is kinda in a funk. im not particularly happy here but im not totally unhappy either. im upset i dont get to visit home as planned. its a total bummer. but i guess everything happens for a reason. im still hanging in there with derby i have two scars. ive chickened out of getting a tattoo about 3 times now. we went ( Read more... )

hey april.... has anyone seen april???? well fuck i guess i lost her tehe its almost mothers day still gotta send moms present here goes...

im in a mood need cheering up will explain sometime. looking at text from last night thought id share the funny ones ( Read more... )

i hope my life is not being driven by greed. i hope the drive to accomplish is just that and not greed. i have wishes and things that need to be accomplished but i am too shy to ask i feel like if it meant to be it will be you know. so i need a part time job not a new job bc i need the insurance with this job. i suck with money here lately i just ( Read more... )

i love comedy just makes me SMILE. smile. SMILE. smile. i hate doctors sometimes. they irritate me beyond belief. deep breath. deep breath.

yet again today its almost afternoon and i'm not dressed. but im ok with that :) i feel like today is a wonderful day to make some goals. some real life something to work toward goals. so here goes ( Read more... )