I really should essay on her, really, but the deal with marreddreams comes from separating Family from What She Wants with What She Has/Had. solo_insanity, more or less, fits into the category of What she Wants from her Family - loyalty, safety, love - while cardio_swindle fits into What She Had.
Which is probably not really a good thing, really. I haven't quite figured out why her world's Tyki had ducked out on them - part of me thinks he might also be in a type of fugue state and is hiding in his white life - but for some reason she associates Cardio with him. I wish I knew why, though. With the string of events afterward, I think she expects him to leave her, and therefore she doesn't want to waste her time on him. I don't know, I can't figure it out.
Which, on the flip side, makes it difficult, because, when her Dreamworld was going crazy - and it will likely happen again from time to time, because she won't ever have a really stable hold on it like before - Cardio was the only Tyki who reached out for her, rather than pointing fingers. I think she questions his
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That makes sense. If she associates Cardio with her own Tyki it's entirely too easy to see why she'll never trust him. As I said he'll always be concerned for her and treat her well, if her dreamworld goes crazy again he'll seek her out again, whatever she feels about him won't change that, and he doesn't really resent her or anything. He doesn't understand why she's so angry with him either, but he gets that he's not trusted.
It does honestly hurt him, but he can deal with it.
As to her questioning his loyalty, lol. Well. He isn't exactly the most loyal Tyki on the block. Not to the cause anyway. Family's another matter.
Like I said, too, the other thing Solo has going for him is the other memories taking up space in his head. I think that if he didn't have them, she would probably trust him just as much as she trusts Cardio. The more I think about it, I don't think she really has any trust in any Family (save for Solo) whatsoever - not even the Earl or the Countess.
As far as Road is concerned, if any of her Family was being Exorcised, hurt, or killed, she would have taken the first opportunity to take down whoever did it. But when it was her turn, they didn't come through for her. It's the ultimate betrayal for her, I think.
Even with the recent events, Road thought it was stupid that the only response the murders got out of the Earls was an Akuma attack. If it were her, she would be one of the first out there ripping people apart with her bare hands. But, since they didn't do the same for her when she was in trouble, she won't do the same for them. It's a really, really weird and childish cycle, in my opinion.
That makes a lot of sense. WHY SO COMPLICATED GUYS? But seriously, with what she's been through not trusting even family makes plenty of sense, even if it's sad.
You make me want to play her Tyki but it would be so much tragic I don't even. Plus I don't know what it would do to her relationship with Solo which I really really love stalking.
...is it sad that I'm more "b'awww" over Bookman no longer being in Tyki's "family" grouping than Bookman would be, if he found out? XD Regardless, lovely and well-thought out as always~ I love reading your essays so much.
Awww, yeah I never really realized that was the extent of what Bookman meant to him until later. Lucky redhead. But how would Bookman react if he knew?
I love reading yours too! I love me some essays. (And check out Solo's journal, if you haven't recently.)
Oh Bookman, you and your issues. They are lovely. But yes. I'm really not sure why, but Bookman just... Meant something to Cardio. Maybe because he was one of the first to just unconditionally derp around with him/banter/be in general human and not treat him like a Noah really. Even most Allens tend to react to him as a threat, and Bookman doesn't unless he's actually being threatening. So I suppose that was a good part of it. That and his lack of a white life and a need for a substitute. Which he now needs again.
Delicious. Delicious essays. Oh, how wonderful they are.
I like the idea of Road (dreamsofnoah) still being his. It just feels right. Even if everything else seems to go topsy-turvy that that remains a constant for him. Very endearing.
One day, I imagine Solo is going to kill Cardio. Or get him killed, rather. Can't say doing what or when or why, but it just seems something that is more probable to happen. Good thing he's racking up the freebie points now. But until that happens, you owe him a case of booze, man. I am enjoying their dynamic very much. Solo would also agree it is fine and dandy not to like other Tyki's at first. They are an odd lot after all.
He has to have something to anchor him in this madhouse. Road is exactly that for him.
Now I can entirely see this happening. Something incredibly stupid no doubt. And Cardio will come back and there will be violence and then they'll get over it. Poor Cardio is my punching bag of death. With all this he should be getting all kinds of shounen powerups but no. And he won't forget the brandy, but you know he'll help Solo drink it. Their bromance is awesome and hilarious. I'm always glad to play with you. Tykis are an odd lot, Tyki agrees. Some of them are right assholes.
Funny how the one known for nightmares and mischief becomes the cornerstone of stability for both men.
Right. Something about a plugged in toaster and a bath tub kind of death. Shounen power ups? As entertaining as it would be to see the other waving around a new weapon or sporting new and improved powers, it would be creepy to him. Unless of course, it took the form of a tiara. He'd get quite the laugh out of that. Some assholes. Some very, very strange. His head was not meant for cat or raccoon ears of any kind.
Tykis just like the odd ones clearly. You don't get much odder than Road.
One of those "Hold my beer while I try this..." deaths. And yes, shounen power ups. Since everyone in DGM seems to get stronger after kicking their asses kicked, and Cardio's certainly had his ass kicked enough. A tiara and a magical transformation would be perfect~ But I'll probably never do anything of the sort. Raccoon ears and making babies our of glitter and nutmeg, Solo. That's what they do in other worlds. Best not to think about really.
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Which is probably not really a good thing, really. I haven't quite figured out why her world's Tyki had ducked out on them - part of me thinks he might also be in a type of fugue state and is hiding in his white life - but for some reason she associates Cardio with him. I wish I knew why, though. With the string of events afterward, I think she expects him to leave her, and therefore she doesn't want to waste her time on him. I don't know, I can't figure it out.
Which, on the flip side, makes it difficult, because, when her Dreamworld was going crazy - and it will likely happen again from time to time, because she won't ever have a really stable hold on it like before - Cardio was the only Tyki who reached out for her, rather than pointing fingers. I think she questions his ( ... )
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It does honestly hurt him, but he can deal with it.
As to her questioning his loyalty, lol. Well. He isn't exactly the most loyal Tyki on the block. Not to the cause anyway. Family's another matter.
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As far as Road is concerned, if any of her Family was being Exorcised, hurt, or killed, she would have taken the first opportunity to take down whoever did it. But when it was her turn, they didn't come through for her. It's the ultimate betrayal for her, I think.
Even with the recent events, Road thought it was stupid that the only response the murders got out of the Earls was an Akuma attack. If it were her, she would be one of the first out there ripping people apart with her bare hands. But, since they didn't do the same for her when she was in trouble, she won't do the same for them. It's a really, really weird and childish cycle, in my opinion.
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You make me want to play her Tyki but it would be so much tragic I don't even. Plus I don't know what it would do to her relationship with Solo which I really really love stalking.
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I love reading yours too! I love me some essays. (And check out Solo's journal, if you haven't recently.)
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I like the idea of Road (dreamsofnoah) still being his. It just feels right. Even if everything else seems to go topsy-turvy that that remains a constant for him. Very endearing.
One day, I imagine Solo is going to kill Cardio. Or get him killed, rather. Can't say doing what or when or why, but it just seems something that is more probable to happen. Good thing he's racking up the freebie points now. But until that happens, you owe him a case of booze, man. I am enjoying their dynamic very much. Solo would also agree it is fine and dandy not to like other Tyki's at first. They are an odd lot after all.
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Now I can entirely see this happening. Something incredibly stupid no doubt. And Cardio will come back and there will be violence and then they'll get over it. Poor Cardio is my punching bag of death. With all this he should be getting all kinds of shounen powerups but no. And he won't forget the brandy, but you know he'll help Solo drink it. Their bromance is awesome and hilarious. I'm always glad to play with you. Tykis are an odd lot, Tyki agrees. Some of them are right assholes.
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Right. Something about a plugged in toaster and a bath tub kind of death. Shounen power ups? As entertaining as it would be to see the other waving around a new weapon or sporting new and improved powers, it would be creepy to him. Unless of course, it took the form of a tiara. He'd get quite the laugh out of that. Some assholes. Some very, very strange. His head was not meant for cat or raccoon ears of any kind.
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One of those "Hold my beer while I try this..." deaths. And yes, shounen power ups. Since everyone in DGM seems to get stronger after kicking their asses kicked, and Cardio's certainly had his ass kicked enough. A tiara and a magical transformation would be perfect~ But I'll probably never do anything of the sort. Raccoon ears and making babies our of glitter and nutmeg, Solo. That's what they do in other worlds. Best not to think about really.
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