Two girls I met online came over last night. They seemed all horny like we were going to have a threesome or something, but then maybe that was my own perception and not the truth. They came over around midnight and we sat outide and drank and talked for about twenty minutes, and they were playing with these rave lights and being all flirty with ( Read more... )

Drinking coffee right now, getting ready for work again. God do I hate this job. But hey, it's just a stepping stone to me anyway. In six months I'll tranfer to another job within the hospital, sonmething more like an office job maybe. Benn kind of self conscious about my weight lately...I am not really fat per say, but my belly is sticking out ( Read more... )

It's hard to take sides on the Rachel and Xris delemna, simply because I am friends with both of them. I just find it very sad because I admired their relationship and it's always sad to see those things end when it comes to friends. I myself haven't been dating at all recently, I have thought about it and have even scheduled dates, but have ( Read more... )

I hate my job. I hate Utah. I hate mormons. I'm not making music anymore. I fucking despise everything about it here, I wanna leave as soon as I can, which is why i am paying off my car twice a month instead of monthly, so it will be payed off by february. It really does suck when nobody is like you, I mean it sounds cliche to say that, but it ( Read more... )

Sometimes a strange numbness overtakes me, and I feel nothing but complete logic. My brain becomes a computer and I feel nothing, but get a vague enjoyment out of my computations. This usually occurs after an emotional upheaval, good or bad. My brother is here now, we have been having some good fun. War of the Worlds was insanely good...better ( Read more... )

A few days ago I got depressed again about having nobody I can relate to around here, or at my job. But yesterday I finally achieved some sort of semblance of relating to some of the co-workers. On a very basic level I can communicate with them, but not on an intellectual one. I have been getting into great shape at the job as well, but it does ( Read more... )

I have a date tomorrow, I am off four days now and I can spend it relaxing, but first I will have this date...she invited me over to watch a dvd at her place, so I will likely be spending the night there, lol. My job is going well, and I am gettingmore in shape because of the heavy lifting and walking real fast. I haven't made a song in several ( Read more... )

Finally, I got to go out to the goth club here and see how the scene is. I can tell you for one thing, that here, the people are far nicer. Far more laid back and easy going. The music they play is far better, and the place (area 51)is about as large as Shampoo was. There were tons of people there, mainly because this is supposedly one of the ( Read more... )

The older I get, the more women seem to enrage me. But it's partially my fault, because certain women I have this weird symbiosis with, where I become a terrible, mean bastard to them. It's like I unconsciously get sucked into this primal emotional drama, and I want to hurt them. This happened with Erica, and it happened with Megan, and now it ( Read more... )

My feet have been hurting like they've been stabbed repeatedly. The job is so fast paced, and I was stupidly wearing big clunky boots because I didn't think. So after 5 days, I could barely walk. I bought some running shoes to help me feel better, and dayum did they work. They feel three times better. This job is alot of hard work though...4 ( Read more... )