난 이래서 인간이 싫다.
혼자 있고 싶을땐 내 버려 두질 않고
같이 있고 싶을땐 꼭 혼자 내 버려 두고 만다.

기억해 두자.
난 이제 사람이랑 가까이 하기 싫어.
잠깐 만나고. 잠깐 즐기고.
더 이상 바라는 내가 바보였다.

all this in limbo business is starting to bug me.
i don't feel close to anyone.
i'm mostly annoyed with people.
people who think it's okay to do whatever because i'll take whatever.
oh, oops. nevermind. that's my fault.

look for me another day
i feel that i could change

in limbo.
in transience.
in everything between.

oh laughing man, what have you won?
don't tell me what cannot be done.

i'm still small. i'm still weak.
i don't have dreams. i have too many dreams.
but one of these days, i'm gonna make this happen.
i'm gonna get better.

talk of loneliness in quiet voices
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time's passing by so fast. this week is going by too slow.
time is on your side.  well, is it?
the big guns are coming in. oh yeah.
got a headache. gotta quit smoking. gotta keep up. gotta go slow. gotta go faster
gotta gotta gotta wanna wanna wanna

wants and dreams. hopes and fears.
my eyes are open. my mind alert.
gimme more.

--
i don't know what ( Read more... )

i guess all people really are the same. we're all young, lonely kids who don't know how to express ourselves ( Read more... )

commitment-phobe = afraid of getting hurt?

lately, more and more of my friends and acquaintances are in relationships.
some people are even getting engaged...and married--all before graduating univ.
maybe it's just me, but isn't it just TOO EARLY to be thinking about that?

maybe i'm taking this all too seriously,
but if (and that's a gigantic IF) you ( Read more... )

a life spent in constant movement,
may just give you "eternal" life.

this is all very relative.

After a half hour in front of her vanity mirror drawing and having to redraw dark lines along her eyelids
that each time went ragged or wavered violently before she could take the brush away. (16)

"How are the pills, not working?"
"I'm not taking them," she said
"You feel threatened by them?"
"I don't know what's inside them."
"You don't believe that ( Read more... )

lately, i realize that my relationships with people
or emotions i attach to people are all too temporary.
they're generally a plethora of colors in a long line of memories stored in
packaged, easily opened containers of my mind.
i am all too often consumed by these.

even more than the actual experience,
these memories often have a more powerful ( Read more... )

{ baby, i'll be good.
i'll mend my ways
i'll grow up real soon. }