It's been a while.

Things have changed.

And I'm now happier than I've ever been<3.

Or he might be something completely & utterly heartbreaking

He could turn out to be something
amazing. <3

The irony in my life is the fact that it seems like I always do something wrong,
yet I never know what I did.

And when guys pull the "If you don't know what you did, I'm not telling you", it makes it that much worse.

Because then I rack my brain & stress out over what I might have done, & although people tell me that it's not my fault, it still feels ( Read more... )

I've decided that it's time for a change.

I no longer want to be the girl that people use, that people take for granted, the one who will give anything to see anyone happy without expecting anything in return. I won't be the one who receives nothing, even though I know i deserve better than the people I've fared before. I refuse to believe "I'm ( Read more... )

I'm confused about a few things right now & I'm not sure how I feel about it. =\ I want everything to go back to the way it was before, when I was happy about everything in my life.

However, I can't really complain too much. I got a new phone & I saw the Jonas Brothers again on Thursday. Amazing, as expected. They've come a long way & I'm proud of ( Read more... )

So this summer is coming a close. All that's really left to do is finish my books for senior English and go to a few shows. I doubt I'll read the books all the way through; they're really boring to me. Thank goodness for SparkNotes. And of course, there's the JB show on Thursday with Jade. Can't waittt<3.

Something surprising happened to me the ( Read more... )

I don't think I've had such a bad night in a long, long time. Since winter 2006, actually. I've had four people hurt me in a span of five hours. I never thought that would happen, ever. And it kills me that I let all of this hurt me. Some of these people shouldn't have been let in by me again, but I let my guard down and fucked myself over.

A
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So there is this one little cunt.
I hope she dies.
She likes to pretend that she's friends with me to my face and do shit like date my ex behind my back. But that's ok, because she dumped him for some prick who doesn't even want her. At least I have enough respect for someone to not break up with them for someone else.
Who's the fucking loser now, ( Read more... )

I hate wanting something so badly that it hurts. Wanting it for two years doesn't help very much either.
And then meeting someone that you know you'll never get because of distance isn't much comfort.
Throw in an ex that's still in love with you and a boy that broke your heart when you needed him and life sucks.
Kill me. Please.