jealousy -- (n., pl.) mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.
It's funny how just a word can describe exactly how one person is feeling. I hate that it describes me though. I get jealous over the stupidest things, even when I try not to. Just the simplest thing can make me feel so jealous I want ( Read more... )

I'm seriously writing an entry at 4;30 in the morning because I can't really sleep anymore. I've been thinking way too much about things I shouldn't even be dwelling on. It just sucks that I know I'm not going to have closure on any of this. I'm not going to get to say what I want to say because the person wouldn't listen even if I pinned him down ( Read more... )

So I'm pretty pissed. And hurt. And sad. And sick and tired and fed up with the bullshit that I have to deal with all the fucking time. I'm sick of being taken for granted, I'm sick of crying and I'm so tired of people using me.
And I hate immature ass bitches who think they're fucking tough or better than you. Grow up.
The people who come to matter ( Read more... )

He doesn't want me.

I absolutely hate the fear of losing someone I love. It makes me sick to my stomach and I'm sick of dealing with it. And the thing is, this time it's not one of my friends or a guy I care about.
It's my mom.
She's been feeling sick lately. She's not herself anymore. I hate coming home and seeing her the way she is now as opposed to when I would come ( Read more... )

And so the girl who cares too much about everyone else and not enough about herself is the one to get hurt yet again. And this time, it's really no one's fault but her own. She puts too much faith into people, hoping that just this once, she's met someone different, someone that will never hurt her or deceive her. She's sick of the liars, of the ( Read more... )

VA TECH;
Everyone is talking about it. And opinions are important. Here's mine:
This was a tragedy, but I've come to think that it wasn't completely one-sided. What Seung Hui did was wrong, sick and twisted, but it wasn't unprovoked. Recent accounts say that Seung Hui was teased in high school for the way he talked when he read aloud. Apparently, he ( Read more... )

[ this is just something i wrote last year when i was going through some shit at school with this guy that i care about til this day. figured someone else besides me should read it i guess. enjoy<3. ]

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people confuse me.
i give up.

so i've learned that sometimes the best thing to do is always be honest about the way you feel about someone, because otherwise, it can end up hurting you more than you could ever imagine. no matter how hard it is, or how much it makes you cry, eventually you have to admit what you're really feeling. it hurts more if no one knows, and if you keep ( Read more... )