there was more I could do but I’m helpless I feel so overwhelmed I want to just cry and hide at the same time because I am alone. I feel separated I feel further away from my own feet I’m not on the ground neither am I in the right place to be free enough to feel the fucking wind. I am dry and brittle and wet with the condensation of whispering ( Read more... )

Im not oging to waste time saying how long it has been since I have written on here. What I will say is that Im not in the best place right now. I am really sad about how Abby's parents are treating her. I am not happy about how she hasnt gotten her massage stuff yet. I am a little overwhelmed with school and such since I really dont have much left ( Read more... )

The last entry was not about Abby. No one has to worry. She is still the best thing ever. I wrote it about a friend. anyway I started to put together my livejournals from the last year or so and some of my myspace blogs and I am going to put it together in book form and get it published. I just realized how much Imiss writing on here. It is so much ( Read more... )

I close my eyes ( Read more... )

Well it’s been a few days now ( Read more... )

So Its only the first day that she is up north but I feel like my heart is being ripped out soo fucking slowley. I cant think clearly and I dont know if that has to do with the fact that my heart is many miles away or due to the fact that the meds That I have been taking have been making me drowsy or maybe even the flight and time change. I miss ( Read more... )

I have worked really hard in the last 2 yrs to heal myself of all the tragedies in my past. I have slowly let go of all the shit that used to hold me so freakin tight. I really feel like a completely new and different person. And since today is going to be a very hard day for me I just wanted to talk about a few things. One of the things that I ( Read more... )

Last night was sooo amazing... Recording her voice on my comp with my guitar, playing uno in the dark with just a black light and looking into her eyes as she tells me she has never been happier and saying forever doesnt seem long enough<3

I never thought this was possible. That i could completely let go of the fasad and be exactly who I am. SHe insists she loves me for exactly who I am. Usually I would never take this as truth, but i hacve always been able to look into her eyes and see exactly how she was feeling. I remember seeing many things that made me sad. When I could look ( Read more... )