I was looking at a friends journal and realized I hadn't posted in 2 years and had a journal too. I searched for it and found it and looked through it. Sorry to the people who left messages and I never replied to. I didn't see them untill now. Luckily I remembered the password. Anyways, thats funny I haven't written...I have been doing it on paper ( Read more... )

Its time for bed, but i'm bored and can't sleep....if you sign my live journal please leave your name, i'm always wondering who wrote what. Anyways, life is as crazy as usual, but God is in control.....i'm majorly trusting in him at the moments....

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I hate money... I'm so sick of everything right now, I just want to run away. I'm about to go find a night job at a gas station or something in a minute. I have neverbeen so stressed out in my entire life...I just want to destroy everything.It has to be wrong to feel the way i do right now, because this feeling is killing me. I pray for better days ( Read more... )

I think i'm gonna kill myself tonight, while play gta vice city i erased my saved game after i spent 4 hours collectign 54 hidden packages, so now i must start from the very beggining of the entire game and thats not gonna happen so i will kill everyone includig me tomorrow.
Love
Josh

How can anyone deny the existance of God? Its crazy, remembering back when i did is like wow, where was my brain? I want to get back to when i first realized whats important in life. God does so much for me, its amazing and i'm such a horrible person. I owe everything to him, I just want to show people how real his love is and i spend so much time ( Read more... )

Just a few words of advice......if its pouring rain and there is a tornado watch, DON'T ORDER A PIZZA!!!! Keep in mind some one has to bring that to you and risk there life simply so you can have a pizza, and if you do happen to order one, you better be giving a nice tip, like 10 or 20 bucks.... I've never wrote in this more then once in a day.... ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to do with myself anymore.....i have felt like something missing and i haven't even stopped to realize what it is till now. Imagine having a dream you put 3 years into and its all gone and back to square one. I miss music so much, I don't know what to do with myself. I have wanted to be in music since i was 5 years old.....it ( Read more... )

I give up...if only that was even possible. I can't understand quitting, i sometimes wish i could but i simply can't. Why do I have to think so much?!?! I hate it, my mind keeps spinning and I can't sleep, and i wonder if everyone in the world is insane, or are they all ok in the head and i'm the one who needs the help.....but if thats true....man ( Read more... )

Its funny....about a week ago I was very depressed, and I wrote an entry on here that was literally like 20 pages long because i type fast. The second I finished writing it my stupid laptop froze. Now I don't even remember why I was so upset. Not much different going on in my head right now, just the same old stuff. Dreaming, wishing for better ( Read more... )